I feel like happiness is a trap. I mean, I might sound like a giant sad loner, but I can't really help it. I'd love to hear your opinion, too. It just feels like when you have nothing, all the things around you are somehow... better? More meaningful? I don't know how to put it.
When you do have something - or someone - to care about, your attention and priorities change. It's not a bad thing, of course, but somewhere on the way I realised, that perhaps human psyche is not meant to be content and happy. I don't know if it's just me, but truly beautiful things in the world are also incredibly sad. As humans, we are really allured by despair and suffering of others - but in an empathetic way - or, again, maybe it's just me.

Anyways, when you actually get something you wanted, or dreamt of, you can always lose it. It can be taken away from you by factors outside of your direct control and we'd have to just... live with it.
Most of us actually fall into a pit of greed, paranoia and other *fun* stuff going on in our heads.

But on the other hand while searching for a meaning, seeking the thing you wanted, looking above and beyond for a part of your goal - that's where the life is at. How many of you are actually happy with the things you currently have? At this very moment? Your job, car, life? It can be anything.

My point is, I just feel like it's not in our - or at least in my nature, to sit down and just be content. It's either never enough or the end of pursuit just loses it's charm.
And you have to make due with consequences of your actions, instead of relentlessly running away.

Well, that's it. I'd like to think I've just laid down some #philosophy but in reality I'm just rambling.
Best luck to you all. I hope you find a meaning in life and generally, you always know what you're looking for and have no regrets.

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Some people on Earth are really really weird...
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2022 Year in Review, Future Plans, and Happy Holidays

https://chikorita157.com/2022/12/24/2022-year-in-review-future-plans-and-happy-holidays/

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Holidays suck, but I think I can get through this year's just fine if I stick to the things that are important to me.

I wanted to write about my feelings about the holidays, but I can't put them into words that make sense, at least to me. This time of year is always really hard for me. It's because, for whatever reason, I feel alone, and that sucks.

This year though, I don't think it will be so bad. Probably because I have a stronger sense of purpose than I did years prior. I have a good job, good co-workers, and a few out there that I can call friends. I think the only thing I need to do now is to confront myself and just be who I want to be.

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