So I didn't go to bed last night. Didn't want to waste my time. So I binged stuff online. I'm way too old for this. #74rku5 #depression #nosleep #stressed #lonely #whatever #rinseandrepeat

(posting again)

Hello friends -- I'm finally hiring:

https://mcy.mcjobboard.net/jobs/98158

https://www.wisporg.com/job-board-blog/2023/1/4/junior-security-engineer

Please. boost for visibility

#hiring #74rku5 #spiff #jrInfoSecEng

Hello friends -- I'm finally hiring:

https://mcy.mcjobboard.net/jobs/98158

https://www.wisporg.com/job-board-blog/2023/1/4/junior-security-engineer

Please. boost for visibility

#hiring #74rku5 #spiff #jrInfoSecEng

This has been such a mind-splitting busy time at work. Security questionnaires for days and days. And we're using a tool to help. The trouble is the sales team doesn't want to own rfps. I don't understand why they want to rely on someone else that might slow their process down. Unless.... They want a scapegoat? They think they won't close it, and if security takes too long, they can blame the loss on us? #74rku5 #rfps #rfpio #sales #EOY

I dreamt last night that my executive stood me up at the end of a company meeting and said he was making some changes to the security team. I was surprised, as we had never discussed changes. He then proceeded to give me a pretty bad performance evaluation, basically hitting every point that I've been working on for the last year. It was embarrassing and demoralizing. And then he called the meeting to a close and everyone got up and went back to work.

Now awake, I can look at it and know what it really is. Fuck you very much, imposter syndrome.

But also, thanks for trying, subconscious. I know it's scary, I know we're not running it all at 200%. But we're getting it done, we're making progress, and we're doing The Best That We Can, every day. Try and stay on my side.

#74rku5 #impostersyndrome #subconscious #performancereview #dream #baddream

Playing the organ for this man today. I don't know him, but he was a veteran, gambler, husband, father, grandfather, and great grandfather. He has a beautiful family. I'm grateful I can pay the organ for them today.
#74rku5 #funeral #iamnotamourningperson #family

I need to get better at hashtags. #74rku5 #outofpractice #iusedtousehashtagsasironicpunchlines