Knee strained. Becoming pretty painful right now. Need to put it up & rest it.

Need painkillers. But i forgot water to successfully swallow them. Came back with glass. So now I need to go for water. Got back with water this time. Need to get on desktop. Is not in sleep mode, must get around desk to push button. Now I remember I wanted some frozen veg to ice knee. Now I need something to hold it in place.

It's frustrating how strong pain creates less focus & more journeys/pain. #ADHDTax #ADHD

@mlapierre Even ignoring the whole "put the onus on the person with ADHD who will definitely forget to fill their meds until they discover the empty bottle" thing, it's so fucked up that it's made so difficult to even get in the first place.

In the U.S.*, we have a single day of leeway on refills. If there's some problem with the prescription or with insurance that takes longer than the one day, we're screwed.

#ADHDtax

(*this may depend on the state, but I doubt it)

Just forced my way through the ADHD wall to do a pile of seriously unpleasant but very important bureaucratic phone calls and emails for my parents that had piled up for a few weeks. Hopefully nothing will be too late, and everything will work out, even though I had so much anxiety I was paralyzed. The higher the stakes, the worse I am at getting through the obstacles. #ADHDTax

Most services allow cancelling any time but provide service until the end of the months/subscription period.
I’ve started cancelling things the moment I subscribe. I’m already in the interface, which helps and I’ll probably be over it in a month anyway. It’s helped me save money and not feel terrible for failing to cancel something I’m no longer using.
And if I want to keep the thing, clicking the renew button is made intentionally easy…
#ADHDtax #ADHD

@woozle it wouldn’t be so bad if Kansas wasn’t the most boring drive on earth in the winter. 5 hours of brown nothing, conservative road signs and constant sun. It also turns out gas is 30¢ more 2.5 hours away from us. Love me some #ADHDtax!

But we also made it a nice time and listened to some podcasts so it was fine. Will I want to go back at the appropriate date? Ehhh.

The lockdown broke me. And the reason it broke me was because I got to experience my perfect day. And I got to experience it repeatedly:

At the time I had maybe $9000. My rent was $750 a month. I was unemployed (though heavily paid the #ADHDTax by not applying for unemployment). I had managed to secure some staples (especially flour. I've always been a baker, and when I saw the way the bread section looked at Market Basket I wandered over to the baking section and bought 20lbs of flour and figured I'd be able to keep myself fed and entertained for a bit.) So my emotional state was calm. We just needed to ride this thing out, I have food, I have money, there's nothing I can really do right now but chill the fuck out. And I did. I never do that.

I'd wake up in the morning and brew myself a pot of tea. As it steeped I'd fold up my bed and sit in the middle of the tatami my bed was on in my attic bedroom. I'd turn on my stereo I had scavenged and pick an album. I had just started exploring ambient music. This morning I pick Green by #HiroshiYoshimura. I pour myself a cup of tea and bask in the sun streaming through my skylight. As I blow across the tea I watch the ongoing drama at the bird feeder I had installed to the window a few weeks ago after a bout of hyper-fixation on bird watching. Three mourning doves have become regulars, and they are the dumbest birds I've ever seen. They are much too big for this feeder, and they are too dumb to take turns, so all three of them try to perch and end up shoving each other off and begin a perpetually cascading fountain of feather, coos, and struggle as they keep unseating each other. A pair of nuthatches watch, frustrated from the large tree just outside my window. I finish the album and still have tea left. The temperature is mild so I climb out our front window onto the roof with a blanket and a book and sit. I don't read much and instead watch folks walking up and down the middle of the street, commenting on this odd new liberty in our ongoing apocalypse. I decide I want to be a little closer to these conversations so I walk down to the front porch and set up my hammock. I make myself a grilled cheese and another pot of tea and sit in the hammock while I continue to people watch. My street had never been this interesting before... or maybe I've just never had time to observe it. Eventually I decide I should maybe move or something so I get my bike out and go for a ride. There are no cars. Cycling has never been this enjoyable before. I bike smack down the middle of Elm Street, my hand's behind my head as I stretch in the sun and look around at the new, slow pace life has taken on. I pedal lazily through the streets of Somerville and up the minuteman until I get to the meadows and do a little bit of languid trail riding. When I find a quiet spot I set up my hammock again and just rock and listen. As the temperature drops I make my way home. I make myself dinner and split a beer with my roommate while I watch him play Skyrim and we banter. Eventually he turns in and I make a pot of herbal tea and sit on the roof wrapped in a blanket and watch the neighborhood around me settle down for the evening. I hear people coughing, and I shiver. It's time to head inside.

I recognize this was a scary, awful time for so many people, as it was that for me as well. I was lucky that no one in my circle had contracted it, and I was actively wrapped in anxiety or mourning over anyone I knew. That being said, I had never taken a vacation before in my life, and I think this was the closest I've ever been. There was nothing I could do in those days, nothing was expected of me, so I just... vibed. It was something I've never experienced before in my life, and I wish I could just have an hour like that each day. That shouldn't be too much to ask, but these days it's always just out of reach. I got to taste the good life, and slowly that's been taken away from me piece by piece as we "return to normal.

#WeatherIsHappening #ClimateCrisis #IWW #antiwork #ADHD #greencollargrunt #greenwashing #greenwash #LateStageCapitalism #Sisyphean

I'm exhausted. Just had a meltdown because I've lost my keys (again) and will have to pay for a mobile locksmith to replace my car keys (again), then pay to change the locks on my house because while I'm 90% sure the keys are in my house somewhere, there's a change I left then in the car overnight and someone swiped them. I really can't afford this right now. #adhd #adhdtax

Last month I realized I've had a paid online subscription to National Geographic for the past 3 years that I have not used ONCE.
I know this because the account, despite being paid for, hadn't even been set up. :blobcatgrimacing:

The #ADHDTax got me.

@foervraengd I was looking at this vote and was just thinking "but I don't want to get rid of who I am!".

I think I can understand where you're thoughts are coming from but from my perspective that's not a helpful view on things. I know the frustration when your adhd makes life harder, I have to deal with some #adhdtax tomorrow 🙄

However, I still don't want to get rid of some aspects of mine. I want to become better in mitigate them, to organize things in a way that suites them better.

Komu skończyło się paliwo na autostradzie, by odkryć, że assistance to ma tylko wykupione na zagranicę i laweta będzie kosztowała 738 złotych? Mnie. #ADHDtax. Czy byłam na stacji benzynowej 5 minut wcześniej by wpierdolić zapiexa i nie pomyślałam, że może warto może też benzynę kupić? Maybe. Poproszę klikać gwiazdkę mi na pocieszenie bo smutno.

@actuallyautistic @adhd @actuallyadhd

@meshe Your post on business life, masking, the costs, facing upto difference. It really touched me. Thank you for sharing.
https://neurodifferent.me/@meshe/109543138256823975

This year getting an #ADHD diagnosis has made me review adult life, the proceeding 3 decades of my business & #ADHDtax costs. The burnouts, the stress, the hours, the cost of survival where some competitors didn't.

That I didn't feel able to (...)

Me: I'm sick of losing my umbrella every time I get one.

Me: [buys 3 umbrellas]

Me: [proceeds to not lose an umbrella for years and really only ever use one of them]

#ADHDtax

The only problem with getting Smol washing tablets in the post, is when you accidentally leave the box on a worktop that you accidentally get wet - the entire contents had dissolved in situ.

Guess that's another unexpected #ADHDtax payment.

@ArtBear @adhd @actuallyadhd @actuallyautistic Well the acronym medicalises it and the word disorder stigmatises. Couldn't be much worse in that respect. I'm glad that that the language of neurodivirsity is emerging, seems like a good way forward. As to #adhdtax and underutilisation... If someone could find a way to monetise my varied areas of expertise they'd be quids in, but I've never been able to!

@adhd @actuallyadhd @actuallyautistic

Also, & I think it's really important to emphasise this, #ADHD has huge drawbacks, it is debilitating & disabling to functioning in the very regimented NT world ways.

#ADHDtax has reached into my life & destroyed big chunks of personal & business life, it has decimated my finances a couple of times.

It really feels like winter today. -4 C and a bit of white stuff on rooftops and lawns, love it.

Feeling a bit down though because my poor af #adhd soul decided to procrastinate so hard on spending money for a new winter coat that now it's sitting in the hands of the carrier and I would have so liked to go out for a hike today.

It's the #ADHDtax, but in a slightly different form.

Mój #ADHDtax to bezsenność. Jedną noc prawie w ogóle nie śpię, następną już ok, bo trzeba odespać. Dziś przyszła kolej tej nieprzespanej ;/

I’ve been wanting to try a new method for collecting saltwater for SIX YEARS. I could’ve done it years ago, but this is the #ADHDtax, it was just never urgent enough until that hurricane made it urgent.

As I put the pump in the ocean and turned it on, I felt nothing. My family cheered as it worked, still nothing. That’s my autism, because now I’m able to process what happened and feel the joy and relief.

I can now experience life with masking or hiding.

I really want to set up a small regular payment to my instance admin so that I don't forget to donate in the future, but I also don't want to end up paying the inevitable #ADHDtax.
The eternal conundrum. #adhd #ADHDcrew

Twice in the past week I've left out things that we've paid for when packing the grocery bags. It was one of two boxes of tea last week, and today a Costco-pack of AAA batteries. #ADHDtax