Anne Marie Price :ir: · @AnneMarie
296 followers · 516 posts · Server neurodifferent.me

I don’t think I’m “more autistic” now that I know I am. I think I just finally recognize what is autistic about me where in the past…I had no explanation or file for it. No term. No place to put all the moments I didn’t understand. I think in knowing it does feel like I’m experiencing it more but I don’t think it’s more or less than before. I think I just know what it is now. Awareness is intense. It can’t help but be. I don’t feel a bit of denial now. I see it all clearly.

#autism #LateDX

Last updated 1 year ago

Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
1096 followers · 113 posts · Server neurodifferent.me

Free to readers...

"Slouching Toward Joy: My Best 6 Phases To An Relief"

Diagnosed as an adult… or care about someone? Maybe YOU are autistic, maybe not?

So excited Medium's "Artfully Autistic" published this! A fantastic publication for new writers.

@actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd
johnnyprofane1.medium.com/slou

#medium #actuallyautistic #Autistic #neurodivergent #autisticadult #LateDX #LateDiagnosed #adhd #actuallyadhd #AuDHD

Last updated 2 years ago

Anxious Cat · @AnxiousCat
577 followers · 1099 posts · Server neurodifferent.me

Today I had some long and emotional phone calls with family as we continue to navigate a crisis with my relatives. During these conversations, I kept thinking about how the trauma of living as an undiagnosed autistic person has been passed down from generation to generation in my family, multiplying along the way. I thought about how much unnecessary pain and suffering we have all endured, never understanding why, or that we were not alone in our struggles. I feel so much sadness for those in my family who will never find the answers they needed. Being an undiagnosed autistic person living in a neurotypical world is agonizing. It leaves scars so many and deep that sometimes I wonder if it’s even possible to recover from them.

The one thing that gives me solace is that at least I am learning to trust myself in knowing and discovering the things that soothe me. Understanding that I am autistic, and that my sensory and communication needs are different, has given me the permission I so desperately needed to care for myself. It has helped me to notice how internalized ableism keeps me from comforting myself when I need it in the ways that I need it. I’m beginning to create new ways of being. I’ve been thinking a lot about the things that have helped me to feel calm and centered, and like myself, over the years, and I’ve been trying to actively do or try those things when I notice I am feeling distressed. And I find that it really does help. So after those hard calls, I’m doing a bunch of those things. From sitting in a sunbeam with my cat, to writing, to eating comfort foods and having a Star Trek movie marathon, I’m doing what I know I need to do to take care of myself. And hoping to find a way to process and move beyond a long legacy of trauma and shame.

#actuallyautistic #LateDX

Last updated 2 years ago

Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
1084 followers · 100 posts · Server neurodifferent.me

"Authentic Autistic Life: 4 Short Stories Fearless, Joyful & Chaotic"

Now on ...

Boldly explore living authentically autistic... 4 stories.

@actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd

link.medium.com/Y4Tf50UfXxb

#medium #actuallyautistic #actuallyadhd #AuDHD #adhd #autisticadult #LateDX #latediagnosis #neurodivergent

Last updated 2 years ago

Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
1083 followers · 99 posts · Server neurodifferent.me

New Episode!

"Authentic Autistic Life: 4 Short Stories Fearless, Joyful & Chaotic"

Season 3's mission? To boldly explore living authentically autistic… out loud.

Text/Podcast/Video

@actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd

autisticaf.me/2023/03/06/authe

#actuallyautistic #adhd #AuDHD #autisticadult #latediagnosis #LateDX #podcast #video

Last updated 2 years ago

Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
1074 followers · 90 posts · Server neurodifferent.me

🚨Exclusive for readers...‼️

"Promising Me Beautiful Lies: How Hollywood Failed My Autism"

A fully illustrated version with 17 NEW c r a z y graphics!

FREE to view for all readers. I'm thinking about turning my subStack newsletter into an on-going graphic novel....

Oh.. and the biggest boost ANYone can give my work? Hit the like, subscribe & share buttons. 👉Help independent writers beat the Algorithm...

@actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd

johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.co

#substack #actuallyautistic #Autistic #actuallyadhd #adhd #AuDHD #neurodiverse #neurodivergent #LateDX #LateDiagnosed #AutisticAdults #shorts

Last updated 2 years ago

Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
1073 followers · 90 posts · Server neurodifferent.me

🚨Exclusive for readers...‼️

"Promising Me Beautiful Lies: How Hollywood Failed My Autism"

A fully illustrated version with 17 NEW c r a z y graphics!

FREE to view for all readers. I'm thinking about turning my subStack newsletter into an on-going graphic novel....

Oh.. and the biggest boost ANYone can give my work? Hit the like, subscribe & share buttons. 👉Help independent writers beat the Algorithm...

johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.co

#substack #actuallyautistic #austic #actuallyadhd #adhd #AuDHD #neurodiverse #neurodivergent #LateDX #LateDiagnosed #AutisticAdults #shorts

Last updated 2 years ago

Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
1073 followers · 88 posts · Server neurodifferent.me

What’s autistic variable ability feel like? My skills, energy, focus, _interest…?_ They materialize & vanish at whim… like ghosts.

Yanking my life up, down & sideways. A crazed puppetmaster jerking my strings. How’s THAT feel?

Let me demonstrate, my friend...

10:13, with captions to aid audio processing.
Includes link to full, illustrated transcript.

@actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd


youtu.be/5P4qW_klsA4

#Autistic #actuallyautistic #actuallyadhd #AuDHD #neurodiverse #neurodivergent #LateDX #LateDiagnosed

Last updated 2 years ago

Anxious Cat · @AnxiousCat
560 followers · 955 posts · Server neurodifferent.me

I stumbled across some of my journal entries from the pre-pandemic years, and wow...they were painful to read. I was struggling so hard with many of the same things I am now, but back then, the only explanation I had was that I was lazy and undisciplined. If only “I tried a bit harder,” I would tell myself, then I would be able to meet all the expectations others had for me. There were also many references to failed social encounters, and myriad frustrations with things like unwritten rules and noisy neighbors. The autism - with some ADHD sprinkled in - is just so plain to see.

Sometimes I feel imposter syndrome, worrying that maybe I've revised my remembered history to fit an autism narrative. But no... if anything, I left so many things out of my mental history, and they were all related to my neurodivergence. It's painful to realize how much abuse I've given myself for simply for being autistic. And how often those messages still come into my mind…

But there was also a me in there who rejected that abusive story. Eight years ago, I wrote:

In the silent moments, I find myself. It is in those moments where I delve beneath the chatter of my brain

[The ragged litany of rebuke: “You are such a slacker. You will never get a job! You are so lazy. You are worthless. They are all so disappointed in you and rightly so….”]

and I find my heart beating balefully beneath, and I feel tears flowing down my face.

It is in these silent moments that I hear the truth.

[With a warm and gentle whisper: “You are enough. You are worthy. You do not need to be or do anything more than you are. You are deserving of love. You are deserving of peace. You are deserving of comfort…”]


#actuallyaustistic #neurodivergent #LateDX

Last updated 2 years ago

Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
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Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
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Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
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A human…
slowly turning toward the camera….
and telling me exactly…
what’s on their mind.

Never, ever happens on my block. Not my nabes.

Coming soon as AutisticAF.me podcast & YouTube segment.

👇 /13

#LateDX #adultautistic #AuDHD #adhd #autistic #ActuallyAutistic

Last updated 2 years ago

Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
1029 followers · 624 posts · Server mastodon.art

Any readers around here?

Nothing that ANY screen ever showed me… not effing “reality” TV… prepared me for life. As an autistic.

Coming soon as an AutisticAF.me podcast & YouTube segment.

Now for Medium readers.

@actuallyautistic

medium.com/artfullyautistic/pr

#LateDX #latediagnosis #AuDHD #adhd #autistic #ActuallyAutistic #medium

Last updated 2 years ago

Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
1029 followers · 624 posts · Server mastodon.art

Any readers around here?

Nothing that ANY screen ever showed me… not effing “reality” TV… prepared me for life. As an autistic.

Coming soon as an AutisticAF.me podcast & YouTube segment.

Now for Medium readers.

link.medium.com/RLMqSnKvMwb

#LateDX #latediagnosis #AuDHD #adhd #autistic #ActuallyAutistic #medium

Last updated 2 years ago

Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
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Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
1020 followers · 595 posts · Server mastodon.art

🧵1/

There's nothing I craved more in my life than companionship. And the times I found it? My most glorious moments.

Whenever I found 'em. For however long. *With WHOever…*

@actuallyautistic

youtu.be/wZMT2gyCVxk

#LateDX #latediagnosis #autisticadult #AuDHD #adhd #autistic #ActuallyAutistic

Last updated 2 years ago

Pam · @thepamcakez
92 followers · 143 posts · Server neurodifferent.me

When you're broke but went out of your way to help ensure everybody got what was on their mandatory xmas wish list but they gifted like they never even saw yours (wrong gifts, wrong sizes no receipts, and just canceling a medical bill “iou” through a note inside a money card that they well knew I was never going to be able to pay back anyways) 😑🥺

#knewiwasstruggling #dysfunctionalfamily #shitparenting #AuDHD #audhdburnout #adhd #actuallyautistic #petty #adultadhd #adultautism #adultaudhd #merryxmas #happyholidays #hurt #doublestandard #invalidatingparents #trumpsupportingboomers #struggling #donationsstillcrucial #icouldvepaidbills #whatsthepoint #makeitmakesense #LateDX #SelfDx

Last updated 2 years ago

Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
963 followers · 519 posts · Server mastodon.art

Merry Christmas!

I'm the diagnosed one in the picture...

By the time you see this I'm STILL recovering from sensory overload....

@actuallyautistic

youtu.be/ACBrmchbFi4

#LateDX #autisticadult #autisticJoy #neurospicy #AuDHD #adhd #ActuallyAutistic #autistic

Last updated 2 years ago

Pam · @thepamcakez
91 followers · 140 posts · Server neurodifferent.me
Johnny Profane Âû · @johnnyprofane1
948 followers · 507 posts · Server mastodon.art

My first video piece in 2 months...

I THINK it's good work. Lemme know what you think...

@actuallyautistic

Video with captions for audio processing. Link to transcript.

youtu.be/I-HE2soUEyI

#LateDX #autisticadult #adhd #ActuallyAutistic

Last updated 2 years ago