Nope. The arrows go right thru and then I get sucked in, after which I freak oot. Mah monsters scream intae mah ears that I donnae deserve this person and I must protect them frae meh. In response I will sabotage what'er emotions arise and fucking RUN. #Love #Relationships #SelfSabotage #IAmVeryBroken #KeepYourDIstance

It dawned on me this morning that one of my #conflictavoidant behaviours is a serious case of #selfharm and #selfsabotage . I often take the blame for things that at best I’m only partially responsible for. I do this to make the other person feel better about themselves. As I repeatedly do this, I give the other person power, sapping my #selfesteem to boost theirs. It doesn’t take long before they think I’m completely useless and they’re always right. I’m consciously trying to stop now.

And yet more #SelfSabotage from these blundering idiots 🤬 Withdrawal from the ECHR means a complete disregard for international law and basic human rights. They’re gradually stripping away rights to protect us- #VoterSuppression #RightToProtest; silence the masses and they’ll cling to power. WE can raise our voices via the ballot #GeneralElectionNOW https://www.theguardian.com/politics/2023/feb/05/tory-mps-to-push-for-uk-exit-from-european-convention-of-human-rights?CMP=Share_iOSApp_Other

The #CONservaties quite frankly don’t give a f*ck about how much they’re wrecking the #UKEconomy. The delusional nitwits only care about serving their own interests and clinging to power… #SelfSabotage #ToriesUnfitToGovern #BrexitReality #GeneralElectionNOW https://www.theguardian.com/politics/2023/feb/04/sunak-risks-full-scale-trade-war-with-brussels-by-scrapping-eu-laws?CMP=Share_iOSApp_Other

Guys… I accidentally ate a chocolate while I was writing code and can't remember eating it. My joy has been stolen from me. #selfsabotage

It has been a rough start to the new year. My headspace has been dark and I'm observing a lot of thoughts on #suicide. I decided to blog about these thoughts and it helped.

https://ourempty.pub/@sikkdays/103676042165308283

#MentalWellness #MentalHealth #Depression #Anxiety #SelfSabotage