I have taken meds and eaten fruit and broke in the tens unit and I still feel awful but I've done everything else I otherwise need to do today so I can spend the rest of it taking care of myself. #talkingAboutIt

Anyway today instead of making myself a cup of coffee and immediately working on podcast stuff I made myself breakfast and watched the pilot episode of the bridgerton spin off and that gave me time for the Ritalin to kick in and now I feel ready to do things instead of anxious about getting shit done. WEIRD. #TalkingAboutIt

I've been off my meds entirely for about a month/tapering since Jan, so I wrote about how that's going. #TalkingAboutIt https://mxdarkwater.com/2023/03/27/8-weeks-off-some-meds/

Went to bed early and slept in but feel exhausted bc stress dreams are happening bc of course they are. #TalkingAboutIt

Was up all night feeling terrible so today I am doing literally nothing but waiting for this flare to subside. In that space of "i know not eating makes it worse but also eating makes me nauseous" trying to force myself to cook an egg.

I've been sleeping on my side weird apparently too so my right shoulder and elbow have been super angry for days. it's just so much fun to have a body rn.

#IBSprobs #Fibromyalgia #TalkingAboutIt

It's been a while since I wrote about the time my parents took in a homeless woman and allowed her to stay with us on the condition she homeschool her kids and not get a job. Sometimes I can't fucking believe the choices my parents made. But I got 2000 words down. #AmWriting #TalkingAboutIt #Memoir

Last night right before bed the irritating IBS symptoms turned into a full on pain flare and today I am exhausted and sensitive. Not in as much pain but I also haven't gotten out of bed yet bc I'm afraid it will come back with a vengeance. Going to take it easy and try to just take care of myself today I guess. #FibroProbs #IBSprobs #TalkingAboutIt

I decided to take some tylenol and a hit and get cozy on the couch to finish #BeaconPines

#FibroProbs #TalkingAboutIt

TFW you slept terribly so your IBS is in a flare and you need to do a quick Google to reassure yourself that it's actually IBS and not anything more serious and then you decide it's time for some tumeric & ginger tea. #IBSprobs #TalkingAboutIt

It's fun when a bad day comes out of nowhere, isn't it?

Today has been weird. It's definitely an off day. We are starting our holiday decorating, and spending great family time together which is rare.

I feel disconnected. I feel like I don't belong here. I know I DO, it's my house and my family.
I think I'll listen to some music and try to reset.

#mentalhealth #badday #weirdfeelings #reset #discussion #TalkingAboutIt

https://open.spotify.com/track/2BLkpiR7oE09eY8DHUk6Bx?si=LumM8KT0ROuLWQC_Kr3LGA&utm_source=copy-link

It's so hard to know where to start when you want to. #mentalhealth #depression #anxiety #impostersyndrome #discussion #TalkingAboutIt

One of these days I will figure out a good starting point. I have much to discuss.

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I wanna pick up my T script from the Apotheke bc today is a big traumaversary and any excuse to leave the apt is good, but I had a full-day anxiety attack yesterday and I feel too exhausted and fatigued rn. Took meds and went back to bed. 🫠#TalkingAboutIt