First day of *gestures wildly* everything, apartment viewing and dinner yesterday done. My tummy has not been well since about Sunday 😬 today and tomorrow is packed at work with events with like so many people (50 today, ~400 tomorrow). It's entirely possible I crash soon. Fortunately tonight is free and SO will solve dinner. So there's that at least.
#ActuallyAutisticStruggles #ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyAutisticAtWork

Currently watching a training video at work & the recording is giving me #SensoryIssues!
The sound is very scratchy+fuzzy noise from the mic, the presenter speaks falteringly (many many "eh"s) which makes it extra hard for my brain to stay focused & they did not turn off their email notifications while recording 🙄
I feel quite the visceral reaction & have what I can only describe as "disgust shivers" and tension. 😬😬
#ActuallyAutisticAtWork

Killing it at work today btw!!
I was running a protocol I have not in this form done before (though similar protocols 6-7 years ago) for the first time, which is always a bit stressful I find. It takes ages to find everything I need & it's not so fluent.
Anyhow it totally worked & I got lots of RNA out for my downstream experiments! Yay! Nice win to end the week!

#ActuallyAutisticAtWork #RNAextraction #WomanInSTEM

I don't think it was full on Sunday-to-Monday scaries, but I slept quite poorly... Took a while to fall asleep & woke frequently :-( also still battling with a persisting cough from when I was sick a few weeks back.. it comes up every now and then when I am active with my body. I have a week full of experiments coming up which is starting with some delightfully repetitive machine loading today (assembling 3 consumables per sample; 60 samples) at least!
#ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyAutisticAtWork

Happy Friiiiiiiiday!

I left work today with a really good feeling! The casual neurodiversity chat I hosted went well, 1 person showed up & another would have stayed to listen if a bit more had gone on during that hour. It's a win in my books, I was fully prepared to not have anyone at all call in!
Also for once my inbox is completely empty!!!! Feels so good!

How are you all?

#ActuallyAutistc #ActuallyAutisticAtWork

I need to stay more aware that as a #neurodivergent person the way I work may look different from how others work. Some days I will not be able to manage a lot & struggle, other days I will do the work of multiple people with relative ease. It evens out in the end & I needn't worry about working too little.

#ActuallyAutistc #ActuallyAutisticAtWork

I will be hosting a neurodiversity "coffee chat" at my work place and I am both excited and terrified 😅😅😁😁
It's an hour a month to just have a casual chat & connect to other neurodivergent people!

#ActuallyAutistc #ActuallyAutisticAtWork

Yesterday I could clearly pinpoint the moment I had expended too much peopleing energy: I was teaching someone about a machine in the lab & my good. Filling 2 hours with talking and explaining was so draining! I crashed on the sofa all evening!
#actuallyAutisticAtWork #ActuallyAutistc #AutisticStruggles

TFW you realise that the reason why you feel overwhelmed by your employer wanting you to "develop" by going outside of your comfort zone is that you are out of your comfort zone 100% of the time already.

#ActuallyAutistc #ActuallyAutisticAtWork #AutisticAF

Ugh! Usually lab work is my safe place but today someone is sitting close to me with entirely too much perfume and it's giving me a headache 😔 #ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyAutisticAtWork #AutisticStruggles

Trying to coerce myself into drinking more water today as to avoid headache again. Brought my water bottle with ice and lemon slices because I am in a phase where plain water is just so boring and my body doesn't really register thirst. 😂
#ActuallyAutisticAtWork #ActuallyAutistic #AutisticStruggles #BadInteroception

One of the best things for me of working from home aside from wearing sweat pants and not having to be around people is that I can just hum or sing along music without having to feel weird about it or risk of disrupting my colleagues!
#ActuallyAutisticAtWork #WorkingFromHome #ComfortableClothes #BestAccomodation #Workplace

I was so incredibly knocked out yesterday! I fell asleep on the couch at like 8.30, then moved to bed and slept all night. I slept almost 10 hours. 😳 Can't say I'm surprised but the last weeks, if not months have been so stressful & exhausting, I've just been running on anxiety. Now that I can get the brunt of the overwhelming work task off my plate I might finally be able to settle in & like have a life!? #ActuallyAutisticAtWork #ActuallyAutistic

Is "Team work" just coercing NTs into actually doing something? 😬😬😬

Feels like herding cats (less cute though) at work and just confirms my general "will solve it more quickly by myself"-approach.

(A bit frustrated with colleagues+project)

#ActuallyAutisticAtWork #ActuallyAutistic

Aaargh! I thought my anxiety had decreased a bit & I was just super exhausted... Woke up 1 h before alarm again & my brain just had nothing better to do than think about work. 😑😑😑
This is so frustrating. My attempts to think about other things bc my work thoughts are not useful just anxious were not very successful ☹️
#ActuallyAutisticAtWork #AutisticStruggles #ActuallyAutistic

First meeting went ok! Definitely didn't need to be this anxious abt it & got what I wanted.
Still feel apprehensive abt colleague, who wanted the meeting but was not prepared with info to properly discuss& plan (so strange, right?). It was his loss though, I think, bc he couldn't show his workload but I could show mine. It validated a point I made in an earlier email & which I felt extremely insecure abt after colleague's reaction.
#AutisticStruggles #ActuallyAutisticAtWork #ActuallyAutistic

Ugh, m currently baseline is so anxious.. I haven't slept a full proper night in a long time, and when I do it's out of utter exhaustion. I need to talk to my manager when she's back so badly! 😬
#ActuallyAutisticAtWork #AutisticAF #ActuallyAutistic #AutisticStruggles

I'm not doing so well these days. I'm absolutely exhausted after work (too much peopeling, being on standby, putting out fires) & I fall asleep on the couch every single night. Then going to bed & I sleep mediocrely at best. Makes me sad that I don't really have a life beyond work right now. 😓
I'm afraid of #burnout too.
#ActuallyAutisticAtWork #AutisticStruggles #ActuallyAutistic

So here's the thing. As an #ActuallyAutisticAtWork I often need time alone or w/people I'm comfortable with e.g. during unpaid lunch break. As it looks now, I need to spend all my lunches this week with this company rep that's doing some work for us (don't want to be an asshole & leave him all alone, he voiced that he liked to have lunch together). Since that means I can absolutely not do what I want during my lunch break, would you consider this working hours?

Had a bit of an uncomfortable reaction abt work task distribution. I'm supposed to start supporting a different analysis on top of one that's already a lot &bound to increase & other duties. But the person who's usually doing this was saying it was fairly little over the year when we started discussing. 1/n

#ActuallyAutisticAtWork