Lol I think my #ActuallyOCD is bad tonight and it’s veering into the paranoia where i feel justified in my checking behaviors like maybe they aren’t compulsions! Love that for me.

I hate my #actuallyocd need for constant reassurance, it’s as annoying for me as i know it is for other people but the anxiety never gets more bearable and I 🤐

@sodamnqueer

I really appreciate that you've included alternative words to use because I sometimes find it hard to work out what they would be.

#disenfranchisedidentities #marginalizedpeople #marginalizedvoices #disenfranchised #marginalized #disabled #chronicallyill #bipolar #actuallyautistic #actuallyocd #queer #trans #transgender #nonbinary #jew #jewish

So, when you are genderfluid, things get really, really annoying. My fluidity changes irregularly - sometimes on weekly basis, sometimes not at all.

When I say fluidity, I don’t mean the gender-change but rather the bandwidth of the change. Most of the time, the changes are minimal. But then there are those days when the fluctuation is worse than the tides. And they can last for hours, or even days.

I dunno what to do then… It would be easy if the fluctuation were just between masc and femme but it is worse. It is between all of the possible n-dimensional coordinates of my gender-Universe.

The problem is that my romantic attraction is somewhat linked to “Current Gender” (CG). So far, though, none of the Gender-Coordinates included attraction to cis men…

Oof, this is hard. Today the fluctuation is really, really horrible. And add to that all the neurodivergence … 😮‍💨

#Gender #Trans #GenderFluid #actuallyaustic #actuallyocd

my OCD-fueled pedanticism won't let me boost content where people misused punctuation marks (even intentionally if it's in a way I'm unfamiliar with or can't recognise the convention) and sometimes this is actually annoying. but it'd be inconsistent and I guess the world might end? like, there's all of the classic this is a bad idea signs if I try and I'm trying to not make my brain mad here. #ActuallyOCD

y'all know how I mentioned the whole #ActuallyOCD thing earlier?

I just noticed that I forgot the hashtag on the end of about a third of my posts in my introduction thread.

it's not consistent with itself. I'm going to curl up and figuratively cease to exist, because this feels like the actual end of the world in my brain.

and heads up, I'm probably going to post version 2.0 and delete the original tomorrow because I can't. the broken threading will also bother me but not as badly.

yes I did just redo a post in order to make sure that the hashtags were correctly alphabetised. I am in fact that #ActuallyOCD and at this point in my life it is easier to fix things than to fight the impulse about how everything has to be perfect.

I forgot to add, that you may find me also speaking up/ranting about #b12Deficiency #perniciousAnemia ( #perniciousAnaemia ) #POTS #hEDS #MCAS #trigeminalNeuralgia along with the failings of health care. Also #actuallyOCD