#SonictheHedgehogComic #SonicIDW #AutisticRambling

I need someone to understand how badly this Imposter Saga and its as-of-now conclusion is affecting me.

• Straight up the premise is saddening; two people are kidnapped and live experimented on for several months, have their entire personalities rewritten and turned into one note imitations of people they have never met. No records of their previous lives are kept so when they learned about all this, they have nothing to return to and go off of. And neither do the readers for that matter; there seem to have been no hints or foreshadowing about where they might have come from. Not a single thing. This must have been a deliberate choice, but why?

• Yeah obviously this revelation is heartbreaking and angering, but it bothers me that Surge's first response is to take out the anger on the entire world, which by this point she hasn't had any exposure to. Rather than. Try to fix all this. And later thinking no one out there is looking for her. Which she can't possibly know because again, just exposed to the world. Also they were kept hidden for months, it's highly likely said people just don't know where to look. It never crosses anyone's mind again.

• And she seems to somehiw lack the realization that maybe her wanting to destroy everything is another result of the programming? Remember she only hates Sonic because of that? Are we just done questioning this? Ok.

• The way she talks to Kit is abusive and cruel, it's barely any better after the truth reveal, it clearly has affectes him severely. He has zero self worth at all. He was programmed to be a one-note servant and his actual personality struggles to get out due to the influence of his superiors. And this mentally programmed reliance actively prevents him from making better life choices. He literally takes all abuse from Surge. He has a chronic obsession with being needed. He can't process kindness from anyone, can't understand why anyone would be nice to him if they don't want to use him. Apparently refused to accept the fact that Sonic legit didn't know Surge was still alive. Oh and when he thinks she's dead he breaks and absolutely needs someone to serve. It's sad and disturbing how messed up he is, and depressing hiw he ends up cold and bitter by the end, and you can just tell it's still a result of the programming, the thing he said to Sonic is so infuriating because we all know that isn't true,

• When Sonic and Tails find out how they came to be they are rightfully horrified and all they want to do is help these poor people, but they refuse, out of resignation, I guess. But. WHY. It doesn't have to be like this at all. If they want revenge, well, the person who did all this is dead so. That's not an excuse anymore. She insists she can never be free but they clearly haven't even tried. Again, can't hypnosis be undone? I refuse to believe there can't be a way if it exists in the first place in this universe and it'sodd how not a single character suggests this. Neither of them considered trying to find out anything about their old lives. They're just giving in to the programming, anyone can see how it is still dictating their actions throughout the whole story, and it's so frustrating and dismal to read this knowing all that.

• This excerpt from the Headscratchers TV Tropes page:

  Imposter Syndrome Issue #3 reveals how Surge and Kit have no past because of Dr. Starline's meddling and actions. It's natural how angry they are and questionable to see them want to take this out on Sonic and Eggman before meeting them, but could they recruit The Chaotix to find out who they were beforehand?

The Chaotix are associated with Sonic, and they (Surge and Kit) want to destroy everyone and everything even associated with him and Eggman. Starline appears to keep Surge and Kit on a tight leash, and his brainwashing is intended to make them as single-mindedly evil apossible.

It's possible they don't know the Chaotix exist. Even if they did, Starline would have put them on his enemies list.

There are detectives beside the Chaotix. Also, it would not be hard to just comb missing person reports until they found someone resembling either of them who went missing just before they were brainwashed.

• One of this comic's mandates is that Sonic has to win in the end, which is clearly not what happened here. This could mean either 1. It's not over, 2. That was a fucking lie, or 3. This is actually supposed to be a happy end somehow. 1 is the only good choice here.

• This is by far the most psychologically dark and heart wrenching thing to ever come out of this series in my eyes. SA2 has absolutely nothing on this. Why would Ian and/or Evan write it this way? I really hooe it doesn't just leave off like this.

Thinking about Tetris and Puyo Puyo and Panel de Pon lately... I think they're good for autism stimming, you gotta fit things to get in nice uniform patterns. Very calming. Watching a TAS of these games is peak ASMR, probably :3c #AutisticRambling

I stg the word "owe" is about to become a trigger to me like no of course you don't owe me anything its not about that just maybe consider more options and how it may or may not be helpful, but fine if you want to be aggressive then I don't owe you the attention you so crave, I will go somewhere else. #AutisticRambling

Ppl be like

"omg why would you make [fetish based thing], oml i can't believe it's good you put effort into this"

like bro, like it's sooo hard to imagine someone putting effort into fetishism art, like imagine someone being passionate about their kink, like sexy art somehow implies less effort than your own mouthpiece "I support the current thing" drawing with [popular fictional character], like wow imagine someone having passion about what they like and pouring it into art shame-free, like bro come on dude, homeslice breadslice, cmon brochacho, cmon my guy buddy chum bucket, like-
#AutisticRambling

Whenever I see some kind of post or writing about some community celebrating itself, I just feel... a little grateful that I've given all that up. I can now see the issues with these groups that they won't, and the whole idea of community and how... inherently hiveminded it is.

I don't believe that you can truly understand your own individuality if you're living as part of a group. I am learning that I don't need to be within a circle just because I may share something in common with it. I'm happy not to present myself as "A(n) X" and to just be me. I am Steak.

And doing this also forces/encourages others to get to know me manually. Fewer assumptions about me based on the ties I would have, or the buttons and stamps and stuff condensing my parts. You gotta speak to me, ask me things, and that in turn helps me learn about myself too, when I have to think about my answers. I haven't been happier with my online experience before. #AutisticRambling #Individuality

I'm uhhh stepping away from using terms such as pr0bl3m4t1c or dead dove for describing things that show up in my art cause.
1. I don't wanna describe my things with that, cause it's not. It simply isn't, that's the whole idea. I don't wanna use words colloquialized by other mean people to describe ME. I am interested in a multitude of stuff. It is what it is, it's neutral. Not a negative, not a pr0bl3m!!
2. Dead dove means "dead dove do not eat" which means "what you see is what you get". It's not a catch all for dark media buuhhhh that's how people use it mostly now, because it's common to say like "i put uhm screwdriver sex in this. That's exactly what it is, no subversion" and it bugs me so much cause I need phrases to stay the same sometimes gah colloquialisms #AutisticRambling

I would like to draw more sexual art with more than one character, but the hardest thing for me is finding poses I like for it. Especially when they aren't quadrupeds. And I'm also worried about those all looking the same, which would bug me a whole lot. It looks fine in other artwork but my own specifically, it just... doesn't vibe... with my sensibility. #AutisticRambling

I don't get why advertisers and credit card is so sqeamish about sexy stuff. I mean. Do you know how much money porn makes YEARLY? Over a billion last I checked.

Who CARES if you get "associated" with it, you'd also get like exposure and more people talking about it and subsequently more business. Isn't all publicity good publicity or some shit? Q-quit being such prudes. #AutisticRambling