I only just today realized: I don't have friends in real life anymore. Everyone has moved away, no one can afford to live here now.
The only people I talk to are my sister, my niece and my coworkers.
To be fair, I don't even know HOW to be friends these days; I work and go home, sleep, and go back to work. There's no time or space to make friends, except online. I couldn't afford to be social, even if "being sociable" wasn't so uncomfortable for me.
When I "had friends", it was all based on how hard I was masking and overcompensating.
I'll never be able to do that again... and I don't even WANT to be able to do it again. That was a fake me.

Still, it's sad and scary to be so isolated.

#BessieSmith - NOBODY KNOWS YOU WHEN YOU'RE DOWN AND OUT.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zea-1Fzi9JQ&pp=ygUdYmVzc2llIHNtaXRoIG5vYm9keSBrbm93cyB5b3U%3D&pbjreload=102

Today in Labor History April 15, 1894: Bessie Smith was born on this day. Many consider her the greatest blues singer of the 1920s and 1930s. Her parents died when she was young. She began performing with Ma Raney to support herself. She died from a car crash at the age of 43. Edward Albee wrote a play, The Death of Bessie Smith (1959), based on the rumor that she died because a whites-only hospital wouldn’t admit her. However, she was picked up by an ambulance from the G. T. Thomas Afro-American Hospital in Clarksdale, where her right arm was amputated. She later died from her other injuries.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Bo3f_9hLkQ

#WorkingClass #LaborHistory #BessieSmith #racism #blues #jazz

#MusikGeburtstag:
Heute hätte Bessie Smith #Geburtstag.
#BessieSmith
Nobody Knows You When You're Down and Out
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zea-1Fzi9JQ

Bessie Smith ~ Gimme a Pigfoot (And a Bottle of Beer) 1933 https://youtu.be/hbQEapPrjGM #prewarblues #blues #bessiesmith

"When it rains five days and the skies turn dark as night,
When it rains five days and the skies turn dark as night,
Then trouble's takin' place in the lowlands at night..." #BackWaterBlues by #BessieSmith #NowPlaying https://youtu.be/4gXShOJVwaM

#BlackHistoryMonth
#blues #hybrid #jazz #BessieSmith #Feb #music #JCJohnson #vocal #piano

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4775nde3cLM&t=3s

@shlepcar Bessie Smith Album #BessieSmith #BlackMastodon

Romare Bearden (1912–1988), Empress of the Blues, 1974, acrylic and pencil on paper and printed paper, 36 x 48 inches, Smithsonian American Art Museum. #RomareBearden #Art #Smithsonian #BessieSmith