Late last week I was told that my blood test came back positive for #CeliacDisease. I was suspicious that something was wrong with my digestive system because of #osteopenia and #osteoporosis being discussed (waiting on tests to confirm) but I never felt wheat intolerance in my guts like I feel lactose intolerance so it really blindsided me to hear the news.

I'm on an emotional roller-coaster. After years of disordered eating and really putting my #anorexia behind me after a decade of recovery and learning to eat intuitively and trust and nourish my body.... here I am. I'm not sure how I proceed from here. It's hard not to feel hopeless when I just conquered #FoodFreedom. I feel like I'm having a new eating disorder pushed onto me and I will have no choice but to comb food labels in fear and refuse for the rest of my life.

I have an endoscopy next month so I'm still supposed to eat #gluten but I feel like the freedom to enjoy my life is on a countdown timer. This just feels so bleak. It's not what I wanted for my future. The bad news just keeps coming.

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