@miriamrobern

I assume you are considerably younger than I am if you were still in school of any sort in 1991. Be that as it may, I assume you have seen it now based on your comments. I don't expect I ever will.

I love Jamie Lee Curtis, but I've never seen any of her "slasher" films for the same reason. It might be related to my #CPTSD as well. I just know I cannot emotionally handle horror stories. 🤷‍♀️

@oldladyplays

It’s weird watching, from afar, my parents deal with an unbelievably heart-wrenching situation back home (immediate family ok). Their way of expressing emotion used to seem so natural to me, but now strikes me as bizarre after years of #cptsd recovery: scapegoating, schadenfreude, eternity thinking, etc.

It’s like looking across an abyss at the behavior that fucked me up. #mentalhealth

C’est la sortie du syndrome post-traumatique complexe #cptsd qui fait ça. « C’est vraiment pas beau à voir », comme elles écrivent sur Pinterest. J’ai fait de l’EMDR et du neurofeedback, là je vais commencer la thérapie comportementale : j’ai l’impression que mon cerveau est tout bien nettoyé des saletés des traumas, même dans les recoins, mais qu’il est encore empreint en négatif de leur forme. Comme une boîte abîmée de la forme des clous qu’elle aurait contenus pendant des décennies😮‍💨

This is an updated, abridged #Introduction

I remain on social media chiefly out of concern over COVID, fascism, and climate change.

I’m a recluse. Offline I keep to myself. But I’ve also never met a stranger. I’ll be the first to offer condolences and congratulations, but honestly at this point not much else. Between mostly boosting others' toots, odd photos, news items, or research concerning the above-mentioned matters I’ll occasionally vent. But not often. I don’t spend much time or invest much of myself here.

I’m a survivor of clergy sexual abuse from Greater Boston. I’m a survivor of familial narcissistic abuse. I’m a survivor of two strokes, suicide attempts, and being hit by a 65+ MPH car. I’ve been alcohol and hard-drug free 17 years. I can take a beating. #CPTSD

I’m an unpublished writer. I spend half the day reading and compiling everything I’ve ever written into one unbound bildungsroman-manifesto, the other half I spend in recovery and martial training in wait for delivery of the next decisive moment.

#cptsd #ACE #trauma
#AdverseChildhoodExperiences

I was reading about CPTSD, and I found the following suggestions for those dealing with it to be practical and humane:

Engaging in mild exercise to help reduce stress and boost your mood.
Setting realistic goals for yourself.
Spending time with people you trust.
Identifying and seeking out comforting situations and places.
Attending a support group.
Being patient and kind to yourself.

#CPTSD #Self-Care

https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/24881-cptsd-complex-ptsd

Question:

What are your favorite resources about #neurodivergence? (#ADHD, #ASD, #dyslexia, #OCD, #cPTSD, etc)

(Articles, books, videos, podcasts, tools, posts, accounts to follow, apps, etc.)

Putting together a list of recommendations on my newsletter, and would love to supplement with things the #neurodivergent community here likes

#AskFedi @actuallyautistic #autism #autistic #AuDHD

P.S. On the road so won’t reply to comments till later tonight!

…These emotional memories can be very painful and I can understand how people may think they come from nowhere or from a chemical imbalance. Medication helps some people but not all and not fully. Working through the pain can help but finding someone to do that with is hard. It’s funny how society says to go get help and everything will be okay. The help out there is not very good. It is not like on TV.
#therapy #trauma #EmotionalAbuse #CPTSD

@transponderings hi, me!

Context: germany, ca 10 years ago, unsucsessful

Pretty Bad therapist tried it, triggered me mostly because monotone movements are a trigger to me.
I think there are now other ways to do it more specialised for #cptsd would highly reccomend those. He also didnt first help me to break contact with the abusers, so the Timing was super off. Hope you will have a more informed and safe setting :)

Treffe gerade täglich schwierige Endscheidungen für meine Zukunft und bin frustriert. Ich wünschte ich hätte früher lernen können ohne extreme existenzielle Ängste Endscheidungen zu fällen. Ständig werde ich gefragt was ich denn will. Keine Ahnung, ich hoffe ich finds bald raus. Raus aus dem Überlebensmodus is auch weird und neu. #cptsd

#ReligiousTrauma #ptsd #cptsd #compassion

Question for those who are #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD or #ADHD with #cPTSD --

It's not exactly situational muteness, but I'm finding that when it comes to sharing my thoughts and theories and the work I want to do, I find that I cannot. There's not just a lack of executive function, but a block.

I feel like it's related to my cPTSD and constantly being told I was wrong or bullied in work/school life. (Work triggers cPTSD daily)

How do you get past it?

@actuallyautistic @actuallyautistics

#LifeDev #Devlog 11 and new build!
Chapter 01 v2
https://youtu.be/e_g2lzSWzzU

#CPTSD #IndieGameDev #UE5 #MadeWithUnreal #Linux

#Introduction

I'm Aryanne and I live in Utrecht NL together with my partner.
I'm a #GrayAce #polyamourous #lesbian #agender #trans #femme.

I transitioned in 2017, my egg started to break years earlier and since then I'm actively seeking out queer spaces.

Being forced to stop with my daytime job I had more time to think about how rotten #capitalism and the #ClimateCrisis are and I became an #anarchist and #ClimateActivist following the principles of #ExtinctionRebellion.

I love my #cat @flippie and post his pictures once in a while.

I like good #food, #photography, #art, #opera and a broad varity of #music.

I used to work as software developer and enterprise architect.

I'm #ActuallyAutistic and #BiPolar and probably #cPTSD and #ADHD.
This combination and the stress the world gave me made me broken beyond repair.
Beginning of this year I made an end of life choice, read more about it here:
https://climatejustice.social/@aryanne/110939780557556331

I mostly post/interact in English, but sometimes in Dutch.
Due to my #dyslexia I will probably edit my post within minutes and it still might not make any sense 🙃

#XR

"Find a quiet place where you can sit and reflect. If you like, bring your hands over your heart and take a deep breath. Allow your mind to settle down and appreciate the experience of coming to rest. Bring to mind an intention to spend the next several minutes focused on #gratitude for the people, experiences, and things in your life.

• Part I is for you. Start by taking a few breaths to appreciate you. Thank yourself for making time and space for this practice. Extend this positive feeling even further by appreciating one aspect of you: maybe your legs for carrying you through the world, your smile, or an act of compassion you offered to another.

• Part II is for someone else in your life. Turn your mind to a person or people who have been kind to you, and take a deep breath into your heart. Maybe you think about a relative who helped care for you, a neighbor who is always willing to lend a helping hand, or even a stranger who performed a random act of kindness. Take a deep breath as you give thanks for someone who made a difference in your life.

• Part III is for your surroundings. Turn your mind to one thing you appreciate in the world around you. Perhaps you focus on feeling grateful for the home in which you live. Maybe you focus your attention on something in the natural world that you are thankful for, such as the beauty of a sunset, or trees that bring us shade, or the earth that holds us all.

Take as long as you like, repeating all three steps as often as suits you. When you are finished, take a final few moments to consider how you feel before stepping back out into the world. Perhaps you notice feelings of warmth or positivity; however, if you are not feeling grateful, it’s important to know that you are not failing at this practice. Make space for whatever you feel. Attending to your authentic experience is the most important part of the practice."

-- Arielle Schwartz: The #CPTSD Workbook

🔴 #LifeDev #LiveCoding day 95. My dream game on #CPTSD #IndieGameDev #UE5 #Linux
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=N49bpuL732I

I think I’ll ask my therapist to help explore ways I can get work accommodations based on my #ADHD & #cptsd , to help keep me healthier and (it will follow) become a more effective educator

Like many (most, probly, based on the fact that I have good insurance) in the US who are late-identified or even just wondering seriously if they are #ActuallyAutistic , a dx is v $$$ & can be inaccurate. And, there’s a LOT of overlap bt my ‘conditions’…
…I am one person, after all 🤷‍♂️

#TeacherLife

🔴 #LifeDev #LiveCoding day 94. My dream game on #CPTSD #IndieGameDev #UE5 #Linux
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=V9V0aEo5_vQ

Why I used to lie: get inside my head as a diagnosed #narcissist

"You end up in a place with NPD where you have so many cognitive distortions and you have been doing mental gymnastics for so long inside your own head to protect yourself from reality, from being hurt, from feeling scared, from feeling real emotions, that you end up in this weird distorted place where you are in a hall of mirrors and don't know what is up and down. At that point I genuinely could feel like I was being gaslighted, when I was the one doing the #gaslighting, because I genuinely felt like a victim, I was SO insulted, I felt unjustifiably attacked.

So, I lied for one of two reasons: One, I genuinely believed in my lies and I was doing insane mental gymnastics to protect myself from scary reality which would fuck with my ego, which would fuck with my sense of self, which would make me feel worthless, which would me want to die.

The other reason I lied was because I just fucking had lack of empathy."

#CPTSD #Narcissism

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bMea2XE8o9E

🔴 #LifeDev #LiveCoding day 93. My dream game on #CPTSD #IndieGameDev #UE5 #Linux
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=OXeYo0aiFNI