If I'm going to do Mastodon I need more than just mathematicians, lovely community though they are. Doing a bunch of follows. Where are my #DisabledAcademic #DisabledInHigherEd #neurodiverse #QueerCripFeminist #ChronicIllness #womenInSTEM #STEMEd people? #inclusion #accessibility #opera #orchestra #flute #education #diversity #EDI #LGBTQ+ #eduCrochet Say hello!

So I guess what I'm saying is, don't expect any insightful toots about machine learning, genetics or cancer anytime soon. I try to boost interesting content, but more often than not I'm not able to determine whether scientific toots are interesting or not anyway. #disabledAcademic #mecfs #brainFog 4/4

and the difficulty of describing cognitive impairment to professionals when you're well enough to manage your daily life, read easy-read novels and even play wordle (I'm embarrassingly bad at slitherlink though) but eons from understanding a scientific paper or proofreading a thesis chapter for one of your PhD students. It was going to be about all of these things, but these three toots are the most I've been able to organize my thoughts. #disabledAcademic #mecfs #brainFog 3/4

It was going to be about grieving, and lost opportunities, and guilt and the fear of failing people who're counting on you, and the structural failures of academia where so much is the responsibility of a single person, and being forced to rethink your priorities, and impostor syndrome ("if I was really good at this, a measly little disease wouldn't get in the way"), #disabledAcademic #mecfs #brainFog 2/4

I've been trying for a few days to write about what it's like for an academic to be so fatigued, especially cognitively, that you're unable to work, have been unable to work for long enough (33 weeks and 3 days) to start feeling very much out of the loop, and don't know when (and there are days when you cannot avoid phrasing the question as "whether") you'll be able to start *thinking* again. #disabledAcademic #mecfs #brainFog 1/4