My anger these days feels so ahead of itself already being angry at the world that I find myself paradoxically chill waiting for shit to worsen. #dissociation

Here is my proper #introduction post since I'll now be here full time!!

✨Who are we?✨

💜DID System of ~26 (we're still learning everyone)

💜They/Them

💜Aromantic asexual (changes based on headmate)

💜Neurodivergent

💜Fibromyalgia

💜I love connecting with other neurospicy peeps and systems.

💜We build our headmates into our writing

💜Crochet, paint, sketch, cook, write, videogames

#DID #Dissociation #chronicillness #AuDHD #disabled #Plural #neurodivergent #neurospicy #pluralgang

I do wonder whether drug-induced #dissociation will feel different from, uh, dissociation that isn't induced by drugs. I've experienced drug-induced suicidality sans #depression once, & that was terrifying.

Suicidality is often accompanied by depression, & that usually brings #apathy into the mix, making one less likely to act on it. But in a drug-induced one, IME, the apathy isn't there. Plus if you had a plan & the means like I did at the time, yikes. 🧵

Here's a small joke between my therapist (T) & me on our initial discussion about #ketamine earlier. Note that these aren't direct quotes.

T: So ketamine is a dissociative, psychedelic drug. One of the effects is dissociation. *he describes dissociation*

Me, in a playful tone: But T, I can do that [heavily dissociate] for free!

Indeed, #dissociation is piss-easy if you have a complex dissociative disorder. But that is not all ketamine does. It also alters state-of-mind. 🧵

#MentalHealth

Other people get moments of déjà vu. I get moments of #dissociation, when Martin Rundkvist seems not to be me.

La saison 2 a été retardée par la grève à Hollywood mais je viens de finir pour une deuxième fois la saison 1 de Severance (Dissociation) sur Apple TV+. J'adore vraiment cette série. Tellement qu’elle vient juste après Breaking Bad dans mon top 2 ! #severance #dissociation

ah yest, that level of dissociation where I am basically made of cloudy soup, totally unaware of concepts like time and reality

#ptsd #dissociation #dissociativedisorder

I can feel Little Donna’s presence a lot today. She is yearning for a mummy cuddle that she’s not going to get. I’m trying to be patient, kind and compassionate, but sometimes I find it so frustrating. #trauma #dissociation #plural (I’ve used the plural hashtag, because that’s what this feels like to me. But I’m still very much learning/exploring what the F is going on in my head)

Is psychosomatic nausea real in the sense that a medicine designed to reduce it would be effective?

#PTSD
#nausea
#dissociation
#gastrointestinal

So many things to update, so few spoons 😓

Don't even know who's fronting, although that's pretty normal for us, especially lately...

Feeling very small lately, the constant trauma nightmares definitely aren't helping. 😰 - blurry Chasms

#DID #CPTSD #Trauma #Dissociation #CoCon #Blurry

#nowplaying Dissociation by The Dillinger Escape Plan

#dillingerescapeplan #dissociation #vinyl #vinylrecord #metal #metalcore #mathcore

Whoa, either that was a very quick wave of dissociation (??) or maybe some sort of partial switch?

Better not be seizure activity, but with these levels of stress, pain, and fatigue, I wouldn’t be surprised. 😓

#NEISvoid #DID #Dissociation #Seizures #Migraine #BrainsAreWeird

So uh... Those of y'all who experience #dissociation (I suspect a lot of #ActuallyAutistic s).... How do you know when youre dissociated? Are there gradients of dissociation?

I feel like my default state is some sort of dissociation. I feel like I'm experiencing my emotions in the third person, like my experience of life is distant. A lot of the time, even good things feel like theyre happening to someone else.

Would be interested to hear your perspectives/experiences!

So uh... Those of y'all who experience #dissociation (I suspect a lot of #ActuallyAutistic s).... How do you know when youre dissociated? Are there gradients of dissociation?

I feel like my default state is some sort of dissociation. I feel like I'm experiencing my emotions in the third person, like my experience of life is distant. A lot of the time, even good things feel like theyre happening to someone else.

Would be interested to hear your perspectives/experiences!

#抑郁自救
终于看到关于#解离 的比较好的科普了，有字幕，可以自动翻译。里面介绍了好几种应对方式，可以顺藤摸瓜学到很多。
https://youtu.be/qAmyMCwtgNA
#depersonalization #derealization #dissociation

It’s currently 4:49pm and I’m Beyond stressed.

Lately I have wandered into constantly being dissociated territory, which isn’t great but I don’t know that I’d be safe otherwise…

Idk how I’m going to raise all this money, only good thing is we’ll be escaping this cycle soon, so I’m trying to focus on that when I can focus on anything other than crowdfunding.

I barely exist anymore, I’m so tired.

#CPTSD #DID #Depressed #Depression #AutisticBurnout #PluralGang #ActuallyAutistic #Dissociation

Today I had a #dissociation #derealisation while on public transport. I ended up forgetting my vest with all my papers and keys inside the train.

I'm lucky to have people that understand that #dissociativeDisorder are not just a "lack of attention" but rather a very real condition that I have to deal with.

Many thanks to all who support the mentally ill as much as the physical one.

#MentalHealth #MentalConditionIsReal

hello fedeversers. we're slowly uncurling from the curled up position of meowy prickly sleep, and greeting the world with a new determination to complete our project ... hmm, what even were our projects? #dissociation

RT @AdJongh
@LonelyWorld2020 @BalkTer @herzog_ph @tkaiser_science If the therapist does it right #dissociation is not a major problem. Just a symptom of #PTSD. @tkaiser_science Please see this study.
https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/20008198.2018.1468707

RT @AdJongh
@LonelyWorld2020 @BalkTer @herzog_ph @tkaiser_science If the therapist does it right #dissociation is not a major problem. Just a symptom of #PTSD. @tkaiser_science Please see this study.
https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/20008198.2018.1468707