We're several weeks, probably almost a month behind on our hormones, so it's family shot day!

It's 5am, we're a day and $600 from eviction (Again), and most crowdfunding attempts have failed, so we're trying to focus on the positive things in our life right now. 🙃

#Trans #Nonbinary #Agender #HRT #Transgender #Genderless #Dysphoric #Dysphoria #GenderAnarchy #Unhoused #Inn #Debt

"Being #trans is an illness!"

No, hun. Being #Dysphoric is an illness. Being #transgender is the treatment.

#Neurotransmitter #serotonin in the #brain increases in women with #premenstrual #dysphoric disorder (#PMDD) shortly before #menstruation. Their findings provide the basis for a more targeted therapy of this specific mood disorder
#Neuroscience #Psychiatry #sflorg
https://www.sflorg.com/2023/01/psyc01272301.html

Happy boxing day people.
Woke up extremely #dysphoric today. Almost ready to go starve myself to drop weight.

But I bought so much "stuff" to eat over #Christmas I can't not eat it.

Starvation isn't the answer anyway. Smaller portions of better things, and 1/3 vegetables on every plate is the answer, along with a walk every day. But I'll be buggered if my mental health will let me start doing that.

Aaaaaaaand... Here comes the #depression

#trans #mentalHealth #dysphoriablows #SelfHatred

Honestly my #hairstyle makes such a difference to my #dysphoria and my entire perception of my face it's kind of wild. Like I don't usually get #dysphoric these days...but I will if my #hair looks a certain way!

Honestly my #hairstyle makes such a difference to my #dysphoria and my entire perception of my face it's kind of wild. Like I don't usually get #dysphoric these days...but I will if my #hair looks a certain way!

#trans

I feel SO grimy. 😭

Fuck, I wish we had a shower chair, we would both be able shower WAY more often! 😤😍😰

#Disabled #LongCovid #ChronicPain #Dysphoric #Fibro

The answer is I'm not #dysphoric, well not in a certain way, I still get dysphoria about my appearance but there's an aspect of being trans known as biochemical dysphoria, basically our brains don't like our natural produced hormones and that causes things like brain fog and dissociation, there's a whole section of the gender dysphoria bible on it, any way it turns out I was inconsistent because dysphoria stopped me being able to 100% focus on the game.

my body stopped absorbing anything from food. My colon was swollen shut. Anything I ate came back up shortly after in an hours-long power vomiting session that usually meant i had no voice.

What little my colon did pass burned like acid and made my entire abdomen cramp.

Doctors tried steroids - androgens. Hormones we now know my body HATES so I was even more #depressed and #dysphoric than before.

I recorded a first draft of the VO for a video essay i was using to distract myself from reality. Listening back to it made me feel so #dysphoric I had to lay down for a depression nap.

Like i get it, its only been 8 months since I even knew i was #trans. That ive made any progress with my voice is great.

It just sucks to be reminded that no, i do not in fact pass like at all.

#dysphoric