#BPD is so wild.

I'm going to write a little thread about some recent concepts.

1. This label is unethical.

When we get introduced to this label we become desperate to "heal".

"I don't want to be that person anymore".

Instantly we are set up to fail.

Not wanting to be who you are is the foundation of wanting to unalive yourself. That person is validly responding to a world both overwhelming & consuming them.

A juicy human bug for the spider of patriarchal capitalism.

2. There are two halves to me.

Joe Tracini (I know him from Twitter) makes wonderful BPD vids that show this expertly.

The BPD half cuts me down & then has me project this negative self worth concept on to others.

Then believing/understanding they have developed these feelings about me independently.

3. This is the foundation of my isolation.

This negative self talk (think: inner monologue that won't stop talking no matter what I do) is projected on everybody without me realising. And as clever as I am, I believe it.

After all I don't read people's responses correctly.

4. Being open vs. being vulnerable.

The core of BPD is shame, an inability to feel it, recognise it, process it. It dysregulates me at light speed.

Processing shame requires vulnerability. Being vulnerable means being ok with people not liking me.

5. The grey area always wins. The grey area is where it's easiest to hold multiple truths simultaneously.

I think kindness lives in the grey area.

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#borderlinepersonality #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #EUPD #autism #MentalHealth

I’m quite shy, so starting to toot is a struggle lol.

Re #introduction

I’m Ellen. I’m a #artist #disabled person from England.

I am #neurodivergent and can sometimes struggle with communication, but generally try my best!

I am interested in/have experience of - #dyspraxia #fibromyalgia #BPD #EUPD #MADD

I am a Quaker :)

I have a website where you can see some of my art - www.elfenzo.com

Eine andere Sichtweise - Die Diagnose ist bei niemanden das Problem

Eine Premiere in dieser Folge. Wir haben Nina Luckow als Gast gewinnen können. Nina berichtet von Ihren Erfahrungen und Erlebnissen aus der Sicht einer Person, die von einer tiefgreifenden emotionalen Instabilität betroffen ist, die von Profis oft und gerne als Borderline-Persönlichkeit bezeichnet wird.

#mentalhealth #recovery #BPD #EUPD #ExIn #ExpertByExperience

https://open.spotify.com/episode/0dKyXg0CBJLJz8BzRK2x9V?si=_zsnc1ZESZ6m6FF3lH_0sQ

What's worse, anxiety or depression? Or maybe they're different for everyone?

I've got a feeling I know which one will win but hey it's just for fun!

#Healthcare #MentalHealth #MentalHealth#Matfsrs #Bipolar #EUPD #BPD #Xepreessjon #Anxeity

Ok. This is scary. Coming out of the closet.

I'm diagnosed with emotional unstable or borderline personality disorder. I'm what is sometimes called "high functioning", that is, my difficulties are almost only manifested in close relationships.

I'm looking for fellow people diagnosed with #EUPD or #BPD for mutual sharing of experiences and learning from each other. Maybe there are online support groups as well? All suggestions and boosts welcome.

changing my #introduction a bit!

I'm WebFeline, an AuDHDer (autistic+ADHD) with BPD.

I draw, sometimes maybe play games when I have enough time. Mostly playing Minecraft.

I'm a xenogender catkin (xenogender - a gender described through animals, plants etc. not bound to concepts of masc/fem binary; catkin - one who's identifying WITH cat species - a subset of otherkin)

I prefer direct interaction over group activities. I have terrible social skills.
If I don't know you well enough use tone tags when talking to me. Please.

I do NOT follow back everyone. I will follow you if your content interests me. I hold my right to not answer questions I deem uncomfortable or to block you if I feel your behaviors are nasty.
I also may block/mute if you post a lot about politics.

Not a native English speaker, not an USian either: don't hold me to your amerimutt standards.

Tag spam below to broaden my reach.

#JoinIn #Minecraft #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHDer #ADHD #BPD #EUPD #retro #tech #Y2K #VideoGames #gaming #xenogender #catgender #transgender #LGBT #queer #otherkin

Kann ich nicht wenigstens im Traum ein unbeschwerteres Leben haben? Ich habe ja recht selten Albträume, werde aber in meinen Träumen viel zu oft mit meiner Realität konfrontiert. Aber vielleicht ist auch genau das mein endloser Albtraum.

#träume #cptsd #kptbs #eupd #cfs

Now that I changed my username, and there is a new wave of newcomers on fedi, an #introduction

I'm WebFeline, an AuDHDer (autistic+ADHD) with BPD. I'm working on my website (slowly), I'm a fan of early/mid 2000s stuff. I'm currently writing this on my Windows XP-based netbook!

I draw, sometimes maybe play games when I have enough time. Mostly playing Minecraft.

I'm a xenogender catkith (xenogender - a gender described through animals, plants etc. not bound to concepts of masc/fem binary; catkith - one who's identifying WITH non-human species, as opposed to identifying AS them, which is otherkin - i'm that too!)

I prefer direct interaction over group activities. I have terrible social skills.
If I don't know you well enough use tone tags when talking to me. Please.

I do NOT follow back everyone. I will follow you if your content interests me. I hold my right to not answer questions I deem uncomfortable or to block you if I feel your behaviors are nasty.

Not a native English speaker, not an USian either: don't hold me to your amerimutt standards.

Tag spam below to broaden my reach.

#JoinIn #Minecraft #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHDer #ADHD #BPD #EUPD #retro #tech #Y2K #VideoGames #gaming #xenogender #catgender #transgender #LGBT #queer #otherkin #otherhearted #otherkith #conlang #languages

My existence, taken as a whole:

I am in a deep pit with boulders. The slopes are steep and the rubble slides very slowly deeper and will eventually bury me. Several times I tried to climb out of there and once I was even so far that I could see what is outside this pit.... but I couldn't find a foothold and slid down again, an avalanche of rocks right along with me.
Again and again I tried to throw at least the sliding debris out of the pit but the more I tried the more everything started to slide.

Now I hardly move at all.

How long will I have enough strength to at least change my position inside the pit, to delay the inevitable? Is there still an escape at all? When does time start to become meaningless?

It's not a good sign when I already have such thoughts at noon...

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Meine Existenz, so insgesamt betrachtet:

Ich bin in einer tiefen Grube mit Geröll. Die Hänge sind steil und das Geröll rutscht ganz langsam tiefer und wird mich irgendwann begraben. Mehrfach habe ich versucht da rauszuklettern und einmal war ich sogar so weit, dass ich sehen konnte, was außerhalb dieser Grube ist... aber ich fand kein Halt und rutschte wieder runter, eine Lawine Steine gleich mit.
Immer wieder habe ich versucht, wenigstens das nachrutschende Geröll aus der Grube zu schmeißen aber je mehr ich mich angestrengt habe, desto mehr kam alles ins Rutschen.

Jetzt bewege ich mich kaum noch.

Wie lange reicht die Kraft noch aus um wenigstens innerhalb der Grube meine Positon zu wechseln, das unabdingbare hinauszuzögern? Gibt es überhaupt noch ein Entkommen? Wann fängt die Zeit an bedeutungslos zu werden?

Kein gutes Zeichen, wenn ich Mittags schon solche Gedanken habe...

#hoffnungslos #hopeless #cptsd #kptbs #notjustsad #emotionallyunstable #eupd #traumafolgestörungen

if your initial reaction to seeing someone have an anger outburst caused by your words/action (and you know the outbursts come from their mental condition) is to slam the person and silence their emotions then you're the fucking problem here, not the other person

#neurospicy #neurodivergent #ActuallyAutistic #BPD #anger #EUPD @actuallyautistic

New blog entry about DBT coping skills, EUPD and a group therapy session. Holding myself accountable.

https://www.ruffrootcreative.com/post/l3-u4-s36-skillful-distraction-problem-solving-notes-and-stuff

#bpd
#eupd
#MentalWellness
#men
#mentalhealth
#bloggers
#hatersgunnahate
#bekind

guess I should do an #introduction then? Hi! I'm Allie. I'm a #poly #queer #trans girl who spends most of her time doing #foss software development and playing games. I'm #actuallyaustic and have #eupd so please be patient with me 😅

#blahaj #polyam #developer

I'm so out of sync with routine and my brain just can't cope with it #actuallyautistic #eupd

I’m quite shy, so starting to toot is a struggle lol.

#introduction

I’m Ellen. I’m a #Quaker #artist #disabled person from England.

I am #neurodivergent and can sometimes struggle with communication, but generally try my best!

I am interested in/have experience of - #dyspraxia #fibromyalgia #BPD #EUPD #MADD

I am a Quaker :)

I have a website where you can see some of my art - www.elfenzo.com

I am here to connect and share and learn

"#Report #EUPD: Die #Bürgerenergiewende ist wirtschaftlich hochinteressant und hat noch viel Potenzial" ...

https://youtu.be/LeYOB58fW6I

"#Report #EUPD: Die #Bürgerenergiewende ist wirtschaftlich hochinteressant und hat noch viel Potenzial" ...

https://youtu.be/LeYOB58fW6I