Check out my latest reading. It's been wild but slowly I am finding my identity.

"Fawn Unmasked"

#ExConservativeHoliness #ExCult #ReligiousTrauma #PhysicalTrauma #Deconstruction #Cult #Fawning #Martry

https://youtu.be/lOcd0cjHuIM

Check out my latest reading. It's been wild but slowly I am finding my identity.
#ExConservativeHoliness #ExCult #ReligiousTrauma #PhysicalTrauma #Deconstruction #Cult #Fawning

https://youtu.be/lOcd0cjHuIM

I'll never forget being around 11 years old giving this tract to our neighbor with my parents' full permission, because he looked like the "Bad Bob" depicted in the drawings. No wonder he laughed at my sis and I every time he saw us. 😅
#ReligiousTrauma #Exvangelical #ExConservativeHoliness
https://www.chick.com/products/tract?stk=21&ue=m

Guess I made a blog! Moved a little bit of writing content on it. Anyways. ✨💖
#Writing #ExConservativeHoliness #Healing #Blog

https://www.specternicnevin.com

The video from this morning.
#ReligiousTrauma #Music #ExConservativeHoliness

https://youtu.be/w2HtA9v7sdA

The video from this morning.
#ReligiousTrauma #Music #ExConservativeHoliness
https://youtu.be/w2HtA9v7sdA

The video from this morning.
#ReligiousTrauma #Muisc #ExConservativeHoliness
https://youtu.be/w2HtA9v7sdA

Today it has me feeling like, "Go directly to hell, do not pass forgiveness, collect zero dollars and all the shame." I feel lonely, like one scrappy piece on a Monopoly board playing with myself. I feel wretched for not processing my emotions perfectly this morning, which is impossible but the cult told me it was and that scarred part of my mind is bleeding today. I'll be stronger next time. I hope.
#ReligiousTrauma #ExConservativeHoliness #Depression #Illogical

After almost a year of back and forth deactivation of FB, or trying to keep Messenger, I finally deleted it today. As an #ExConservativeHoliness person I have hundreds of connections with people who really don't want to talk with me anymore, they just want to lurk. And I can't do it anymore. So anyways, maybe I'll try again in a year, see what I can continue to make of myself in the meantime. I'm still going to be a major disappointment but that's okay. #MentalHealth

I'd love to erase some of the terrible doctrines such as "Christian Perfection" and "Entire Sanctification" but they will likely be there forever, fucking up my mental processes at sometimes random moments that seem unrelated. I don't know how so many of them are even functioning at all. The more I realized the implication of my indoctrinations the more I saw why I could never grow up.
#ExConservativeHoliness #Excult #ReligiousTrauma

So the #ExConservativeHoliness hashtag is out there, here's my channel with some rambles on my #Deconstruction journey.
https://youtube.com/@specternicnevin

My coming out and critiques of The Conservative Holiness Movement.
#excult #exconservativeholiness #queer

https://youtu.be/7Mm85j5fY-E