In all of the #therapy I have had in the last 55 years, nothing has even touched the problem. Now, at #age70 #realisation is kicking in. I am literally in #physicalshock tonight. Feel like I’ve been #zapped with #240volts. I didn’t realise how physically sick change could make me, but there it is. And there is #hope. Not the shit the #godbotherers push, but real hope. Fark.