I made it through to the last day with 4 shmowders and the 6 panaceas, ready to cure everyone who may need it, but unable to cure my own mind after all the things I had done to get the materials in the first place. It was like climbing a mountain. Except instead of using my hands I used a knife and instead of a mountain, it was the bodies of people I had deemed "disposable." I may never recover.

#Pathologic #Haruspex

Days 9, 10, and 11 hurt me in new and horrifying ways. If you thought it was bad that Artemy's first quest involved "should I kill this child or not?" then let me tell you, it gets Much Worse. One quest had me facing multiple pairs or trios of hostile kids who you have to kill in order to complete the quest. What the *fuck*? I was literally crying and so upset. It was like I was Artemy and I could feel all the blood on my hands. Terrible. Brilliant.

#Pathologic #Haruspex

this game activating my depression for real. I posted this on my tumblr last night, as a sort of wrap up for the day's...uh...work? Suffering? Definitely suffering.
"I had 61 hearts in my bag on day 7. I'm losing my grip on reality. The plague angels cannot touch me for I am no longer real"

#Pathologic #Haruspex

At the same time, living on the edge of the town, roaming the steppe, and being uhhh intimately familiar with the organs of every dead person gives a much different experience. So many of the townsfolk hate the #Haruspex, and his desire to preserve the town and the very alive land it's built on is so strong. It's sad to see this man coming home to the town he grew up in and have it reject him so strongly. Given how I've changed over time, I can relate.

#Pathologic

I'm almost halfway through my second playthrough of #Pathologic, this time I'm the #Haruspex. It feels so much more exhausting and draining and terrifying than the first playthrough. Probably this is because it's finished less often, so it's less discussed, so there's more secret things I don't know. I am using a guide because I'm simply trying to experience the story.

So obviously the best way to react to a game making me depressed is to (checks notes) play more of it?
I started the #Haruspex run the same night, and it's *rough*. I genuinely feel like no matter what Artemy tries to do or how he thinks of himself, he is doomed to hurt people. Whether it's because he's being attacked for a mistaken identity, or because he is practically being ordered to bring a still-beating heart to the #Bachelor or whatever new hell awaits him tomorrow

Tonight on #WUFO we used the VIRTUAL #HARUSPEX to try to generate something we can share in our dreams. We pulled the Ace of Swords and The Star/Kallisto, then used this prompt to make images: "A symbol, object, or animal that is likely to appear in dreams!” Here are mine. I’ll share more when I have time to add Alt text!

divination #oracle #tarot #dreams #ArtificialintelligenceAI #AI

Instructions for playing along at home: https://www.wufo.watch/ai-oracle/

#haruspex magnetised so he can change into his very silly looking cousin #exocrine
#Tyranids

Inktober 10,HOPE(Panacea)
#Inktober #Inktober2020 #Day10 #HOPE #Inktoberday10 #character #drawing #dibujos #art #arte #handdrawn #handdrawing #ink #inked #NobodysArtistClub #ArtistOnTwitter #Pathologic #Haruspex