Really hate when I have a #hypomania day....it starts out fine then always turns to agitated buzzing..... #bipolar

#bipolar #bipolardisorder tends to lead to a complicated relationship with happiness. My personal experience, as I can't speak for anyone else, always gives me mixed feelings when I'm happy. After so long I struggle between what's happy and what's <em>too</em> happy. Is it happiness or #mania / #hypomania . Do I feel out of control or content? So, I have a very complicated relationship with happiness

Moving my profile from Ohai.Social to here...

#Introduction
Bipolar gay guy. I identify more with being bipolar than being gay - it's that intrusive.

Functionally disabled these days due to med resistant depression. Letting life go by while I putter in the garden and keep my dogs happy.

Feel free to ask me about depression or being bipolar.

July is #DisabilityPrideMonth
https://ohai.social/@skeletonpup@library.love/110685213483776414

#Bipolar #Depression #Hypomania #MentalHealth #Neurodiverse #Disabled #lgbtq #lgbtqia #Garden #Dogs

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I’m still only getting around 5 hours sleep per night. I feel less edgy and #hypersexual but I could really do with 7 or 8 hours. Maybe I should get some sleeping pills. Slightly reluctant though cos even they don’t produce real sleep, and just mask the problem.
#hypomania #bipolar #cyclothymia

My #hypomania seems to be subsiding after reducing my #antidepressants and after a spell of cloudier, rainier weather (I have #seasonalaffectivedisorder). My aggression and #hypersexuality levels are down, and hours of sleep and ability to focus are up.
#bipolar #cyclothymia

#Hypomania turns me into a bit of a dick. I become more assertive to the point of mild aggression. People don’t know how to handle me - especially senior mangers 😬. Quite remarkable that I’ve never been fired.
#bipolar #cyclothymia

I got 8 hours sleep last night which is double what I’ve been managing of late. Thank f*ck for that as my #hypomania has been getting out of control. I narrowly avoided a full on war with a senior manager at work, and nearly fell out with an old friend on Twitter, all the while feeling angry, fighty and on the verge of tears. Hoping that the wired rage will now subside. And the #hypersexuality.
#bipolar is complete mind f*ckery
#cyclothymia

I’ve emerged from a mini #hypomanic episode and entered into the inevitable crash. I’ve just slept 4pm to 8pm and will likely sleep through the night too. Hoping stable times will resume tomorrow 🤞
#bipolar #cyclothymia #hypomania

#Introduction

Letting life go on while I putter in the garden and keep my dogs happy. Curious and happy to read about how others see the world.

#Bipolar #BipolarDisorder #Depression #Mania #Hypomania #Cyclothymia #Gay #lgbtq #lgbtqia #Garden #Butterfly #Dogs

#bipolar #bipolardisorder #depression #mania #hypomania #gay #lgbtq #garden #butterfly #dogs

Confirmation of my status as an #introvert
Ok I’m also an occasional #extrovert when the meds aren’t working 😅
https://stranger.social/@prismnpen/110305200092258319
#bipolar #cyclothymia #hypomania #mentalhealth

@ArtemisBJJ @justanna sleep is a strong indicator of how stable I am with #cyclothymia. Working until midnight then up to start again at 4am = out of control #hypomania. Not getting out of bed = #depression . Other indicators include levels of patience, anxiety, road rage, speeding, paranoia, fidgitiness, #hypersexuality and a sense of invincibility.

To be clear, I'm not talking about intentionally surfacing symptoms. I'm talking about letting the parts of my personality that are #hypomania-lite be what they are. And for the love of Planet Earth, I'm talking about trusting that my having #bipolar disorder does not mean I don't know what's right and wrong in the world. It doesn't mean I'm intolerably strange. It doesn't mean I can't be my own authority on life and how to live it.

Over the years, of course, I clubbed the shit out of the disorder, trying to get rid of all the embarrassing parts. I'm not talking about medicine (which I do take) – I'm talking about modifying my personality and behavior to contain anything remotely wacky. I can do it with #hypomania, mostly. #Depression is harder. Mixed episodes are a lot of sitting still with my head on fire. #bipolar

Everything feels draggy and pointless today. The sun is not shining. So much to do. Days like this I actually miss the frantic #hypomania feeling that gets me moving. I know it makes me miserable in the end, but it's easier at first than this mucky, trudging through wet sand feeling. #bipolar

Somebody clap for everything I did yesterday.

Like typing a 1k-word SW content script and wiping out another 1.5k words in my gender anthology essay.

Only 500 more and an editing pass to go on the latter!

Plus I cleaned my desk and set up my desktop and cleaned my room a bit more, & set up 2 months of medical transport rides.

This is a lot, for me.

But also, I haven't felt tired yet, so perhaps let's cross our fingers that this isn't the onset of a bout of #hypomania.

#amWriting #SCWOTZ

I feel hypomania kicking in again, mood is almost too good considering what has happened in the past couple of weeks. I want to buy this and that and felt so inspired that I even wrote some lyrics to the song I've been trying to get together for a while now, and tried to get some melody going with a guitar too to match the lyrics. Can't just get enough focus on that though because my mind is racing from one thing to another. Yeah you're reading a toot of a madman now, haha!

#bipolar #hypomania

It seems that I have a little #hypomania going on today. I've been cleaning up my apartment, washing the dishes, had a little walk and now been playing guitar for over an hour and even started writing a song. Haven't been this productive for ages!
These small joys of the #bipolar side, just have to take and cherish em'.

How are you doing today?

#mentalhealth

To fight aloud, is very brave
But gallanter, I know
Who charge within the bosom
The Calvary of Woe

Who win, and nations do not see
Who fall, and none observe
Whose dying eyes, no Country
Regards with patriotic love

Emily Dickinson

#BipolarDisorder #Bipolar #Depression #Hypomania #Mania #Cyclothymia #RapidCycling #ManicDepressive #MentalHealth

To fight aloud, is very brave
But gallanter, I know
Who charge within the bosom
The Calvary of Woe

Who win, and nations do not see
Who fall, and none observe
Whose dying eyes, no Country
Regards with patriotic love

Emily Dickinson

#bipolar #depression #hypomania #mania