Have you ever been in the midst of your world crumbling apart all around you and you start to wonder just how in the fuck you ended up here? Almost 41, jobless, no money, bills piling up and so much pressure weighing you down that you wonder if you'll ever get back up? Sometimes I think back to pin point where it all went to shit and what I can come up with is that I'm not supposed to be alive. That somehow, someone screwed up and didn't cut my life line when it was supposed to. All those years ago, staring death in the face and feeling like I won when I survived, but instead of feeling a verve for life I've only felt empty, broken, dark. It's been a struggle since then to maintain my life, to be who everyone expects of me. When most days I just wish the darkness had won, that the devil had taken my soul instead of letting me live. I survived being strangled, but I came back dark, evil, unworthy of goodness, poisoning everyone and everything around me.

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