Talking to my mom the other day, she said when I was a child I was very argumentative. If I wanted something and believed something was right I would talk and talk and talk and argue my point to exhaustion. I kind of remember doing that at home, but she said I did that in school too, I argued even with teachers. I dont remember that at all.

The weirdest thing is that nowadays I find advocating for myself incredibly difficult. Even if the situation is unfair, or Im uncomfortable or hurt by someone, its more likely that I will just bear it than say something. If I say something, if the person argues back, and does not take into account what I say, I find it hard to keep talking and sustain the conversation and keep advocating for what I think is right.

Probably the things argued about as a kid were much simpler than the things Ive tried to argue about as an adult. But still, little me had powers I don't have anymore. I wonder what happened.

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Me: I will keep it in the... *gets distracted with something*

Them: Will you keep it where?

Me: hum?

Them: where will you keep it?

Me: *confused* Didn't I say it?

Them: No, you said "I will keep it in the..." and never finished

Me: oh sorry... in the fridge, I meant to say in the fridge. I really didnt say it?

Them: nope

Me: I thought it so loudly though, how come you didnt read my thoughts?

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I'd like to talk a bit about the reasons why I decided to chronicle my process of learning pixel art.

I've never been good at anything art, and even though I've tried many times practicing and learning various artistic skills, I could never stick to it. Part of the reason was ADHD, rejection sensitivity dysphoria and a deep acquired shame of being bad at anything. 1/3

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Today was supposed to be a day of rest for me. It turns out I have a few unscheduled house chores that need to be done right away.

The result is:
- Im unable to relax or do the stuff I wanted to do.
- Im unable to do the chores I must do.
- Im just laying on my bed, anxious, frustrated and angry.

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