I have this constant dread that everything’s going to fall apart

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What makes a life good?

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I’m worried that if/when I do get into another relationship, I’ll constantly compare to the one that didn’t work out

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I am reminded by why I don’t scroll on Instagram

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I’m gonna die alone, aren’t I

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Alone (2023)

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You do make me hard, but she makes me weak

Be My Mistake - The 1975 🎶

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It may be time to see a therapist again. Too many things triggering my sadness

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I realize it’ll soon be almost 3 years since I’ve done more than awkwardly hug somebody

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Friend material? Sure
Dating material? Laughable

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Why does everything both good and bad have to happen on Valentine’s Day

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But all I have is me and my pillow

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I would even settle for cuddling

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Or even just kissing somebody would be nice

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I JUST WANT TO BE DONE WITH EVERYTHING

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My friend thought I’d have a gf by October… well yeah that’s not gonna happen

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I feel so sad right now. Not only am I finding it difficult to find somebody to love, I also can’t find a good place to live

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I consistently act exactly like what I don’t want to be like. Why can’t I just be a good person and let them down slowly. I can never be friends with my exes bc of how I break things off

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Another thing I realize is that I’m really bad at figuring what I want in a relationship. When I do figure out that I don’t want whatever relationship I’m currently in, then I end it in such a horrible way.

Like this previous relationship, I could’ve just let it be “the one that got away”, but then I had to go back and make her hate me.

I’m sure she’s doing fine now and probably so happy that I’m out of her life. I just wish I hadn’t ended it the way I did.

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After I had a relationship end pretty badly a couple months ago, I could think about nothing else for like a month afterwards. It was particularly bad whenever I was hanging out with people and couldn’t think of things to say bc she was on my mind 24/7.

It’s gotten better now, but I don’t feel like I’m back to the level I was before it all. It may take me many more months to get over it, and probably years before I don’t even think of her anymore.

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