Some positive ways to cope with being a #MAP in a hostile world that have helped for me:

- Seek out information about MAPs (https://www.mapresources.info/ is an excellent starting point)
- If you have feelings of guilt or shame, try practicing #SelfCompassion (see for example https://programs.clearerthinking.org/practice_self-compassion.html)
- Get involved with online MAP communities (such as NNIA!) and talk about your story
- Get support from friends and family, which might require coming out to them (which is a topic for another toot)
- If you think you could benefit from therapy, try to find a good therapist who knows about MAP issues
- Help out other MAPs you know online or in person, especially ones who are struggling
- Help building and expanding online MAP communities in whatever way you can
- Advocate for MAP rights, if you can do so safely

What other ways have helped you in the past? #MapPositivity #MapCommunity

#lolicon #pedophilia #mapcommunity #personal

Here is my tell-all story with problematic fiction, the MAP community, and the mental scar that I hope to heal. Don't worry, this is NOT a fanti post but I aim to explain why that movement exists in the form it does now in addition to telling my own story. I've already talked about most of this at length multiple times elsewhere, but I feel like there's still this brutal ticking time bomb that i have to talk out into the world somehow.

It was 2012 when I first hit puberty. I was a big Nickelodeon/Cartoon Network kid, so I knew I was a toonophile from the outset. Out of curiosity, looked up "dexters mom sexy" (obviously NOT problematic but a prelude nonetheless) on the old MacBook our family had. From that moment onward, I was hooked on cartoon porn.

I soon realized my 3DS's browser gave me a private space away from the prying eyes of my parents. I searched "sexy cartoon" and I came across the old booru sites with a treasure trove of the stuff. "Underage" characters like Gwen Tennyson or Paulina from Danny Phantom were featured and god, it was hot.

Most importantly though, I came across JABComix and My Hot Ass Neighbor. It was then that I knew that I had a straight shota kink; mom-son incest was a bonus. The whole idea of this hung kid trying to fuck this cute lady in any way he can was such a compelling fantasy for me.

Of course, I had to physically address my horniness somehow. Unfortunately for me though, I had an abstinence-only, clinically focused sex education in school and the situation back at home wasn't much better (aside from a cheesy pamphlet that wasn't helpful in the slightest). So I thought rubbing my dick against my underwear was the way to fap. Amd unsurprisingly, I scraped my foreskin right off. I only learned how to masturbate properly through a Wikipedia article, but it was smooth sailing from there.

By the middle of the 2010's decade, I broadened my porn horizons. I discovered Rule 34, DeviantArt and xbooru. I got acquainted with artists like Codykins123, Grimphantom and DLT (the latter's my favorite porn artist to this day, BTW). I learned about Literotica, and they had some good MILF-son stories there to read every now and then. I even lurked the artists' blogs, where I could find more smut as soon as it was available.

I never really thought much of it, especially considering I was a pubescent minor myself and that "All characters are portrayed as 18+" was plastered on every page. I did posess some inklings of anti mentality every now and then, though. When I read the book Speak for a school assignment around 2014, I was afraid because I was getting turned on by the rape scene around the book's climax. I was scared that I would be a rapist, but thankfully my mom calmed me down on THAT front. And in 2015, when I realized I liked the outright loli stuff too, I had a bit of a heart attack although the worry was primarily a legal one.

Of course, I mellowed out on both the rape and loli thing by 2016. It's not like I was watching real CP or incest porn; I wasn't even that attracted to real people let alone children or my family members. I knew it was fiction, even with my limited sex education.

Around the same time, I got involved in another area of DeviantArt. You see, dA had these little things called "stamps." They were small macros with an opinion on it that you could feature on your main page.

One of the use cases for them was calling out social justice warriors. You see, I became a raging Anti-SJW during Trump's 2016 presidential run. I was taught the value of accepting facts even if they turned out to be politically incorrect or unpopular. I was clamoring for a source of anti-SJW commentary other than YouTube, and dA's stamp community seemed like the best bet. Some of the people that I followed on that side of dA were Mintaka-TK, World-Hero21, TheArtFrog, and the main antagonist of our story: Akhnaton-II.

We fast forward to 2018. I see that Trump was less of a lame duck than I'd thought he'd be, and I realized that "Anti-SJWs are just disgruntled liberals" was a flat-out lie with how they reacted to the election of AOC. So by this time, I had become far more receptive to "progressive" ideas.

It was a calm spring day that year. I logged onto DeviantArt, went to Akhnaton-II's page, and found that he posted an incendiary graphic: "ONLY 1-2% of pedophiles commit CSA. Don't promote hate towards innocent people."

I was curious, and I clicked on it. I read the description and he actually made a very good argument as to how the statistic was reached and how it mattered. He condemned CSA as much as anyone, but he said that "hey, maybe we shouldn't conflate that and pedophiles as a group of people." He even cited a few scientific articles explaining how not all child molesters were pedophiles, making the case that sexual attraction wasn't the leading cause of rape.

I looked in the comment section to try to find a convincing counter-argument. I ended up even more impressed with Akh, as the comments were literally just strawmen ("Why are you defending pedophiles?"), ad hominem attacks ("Someone check this guy's hard drive."), or otherwise missing the point.

Noone could actually debunk it. It was the truth that nobody wanted to hear, and I could not wait for what Akh had to say next.

I then found a slightly older graphic he made: "I want YOU to support NOMAPs!". It was this graphic that gave the "pedophile that doesn't touch children" a name: a non-offending minor attracted person. This was someone whose only "desire" was to safely engage in their fantasies in peace, and who deserved as much human respect as you or I did.

And of course, he was met with the same anti-intellectual response in the comments there. It was official. I stumbled upon the most controversial truth ever put to the web.

That November, Tumblr announced their ban on porn.

[to be continued]

#lolicon #pedophilia #mapcommunity #personal

Here is my tell-all story with problematic fiction, the MAP community, and the mental scar that I hope to heal. Don't worry, this is NOT a fanti post but I aim to explain why that movement exists in the form it does now in addition to telling my own story. I've already talked about most of this at length multiple times elsewhere, but I feel like there's still this brutal ticking time bomb that i have to talk out into the world somehow.

It was 2012 when I first hit puberty. I was a big Nickelodeon/Cartoon Network kid, so I knew I was a toonophile from the outset. Out of curiosity, looked up "dexters mom sexy" (obviously NOT problematic but a prelude nonetheless) on the old MacBook our family had. From that moment onward, I was hooked on cartoon porn.

I soon realized my 3DS's browser gave me a private space away from the prying eyes of my parents. I searched "sexy cartoon" and I came across the old booru sites with a treasure trove of the stuff. "Underage" characters like Gwen Tennyson or Paulina from Danny Phantom were featured and god, it was hot.

Most importantly though, I came across JABComix and My Hot Ass Neighbor. It was then that I knew that I had a straight shota kink; mom-son incest was a bonus. The whole idea of this hung kid trying to fuck this cute lady in any way he can was such a compelling fantasy for me.

Of course, I had to physically address my horniness somehow. Unfortunately for me though, I had an abstinence-only, clinically focused sex education in school and the situation back at home wasn't much better (aside from a cheesy pamphlet that wasn't helpful in the slightest). So I thought rubbing my dick against my underwear was the way to fap. Amd unsurprisingly, I scraped my foreskin right off. I only learned how to masturbate properly through a Wikipedia article, but it was smooth sailing from there.

By the middle of the 2010's decade, I broadened my porn horizons. I discovered Rule 34, DeviantArt and xbooru. I got acquainted with artists like Codykins123, Grimphantom and DLT (the latter's my favorite porn artist to this day, BTW). I learned about Literotica, and they had some good MILF-son stories there to read every now and then. I even lurked the artists' blogs, where I could find more smut as soon as it was available.

I never really thought much of it, especially considering I was a pubescent minor myself and that "All characters are portrayed as 18+" was plastered on every page. I did posess some inklings of anti mentality every now and then, though. When I read the book Speak for a school assignment around 2014, I was afraid because I was getting turned on by the rape scene around the book's climax. I was scared that I would be a rapist, but thankfully my mom calmed me down on THAT front. And in 2015, when I realized I liked the outright loli stuff too, I had a bit of a heart attack although the worry was primarily a legal one.

Of course, I mellowed out on both the rape and loli thing by 2016. It's not like I was watching real CP or incest porn; I wasn't even that attracted to real people let alone children or my family members. I knew it was fiction, even with my limited sex education.

Around the same time, I got involved in another area of DeviantArt. You see, dA had these little things called "stamps." They were small macros with an opinion on it that you could feature on your main page.

One of the use cases for them was calling out social justice warriors. You see, I became a raging Anti-SJW during Trump's 2016 presidential run. I was taught the value of accepting facts even if they turned out to be politically incorrect or unpopular. I was clamoring for a source of anti-SJW commentary other than YouTube, and dA's stamp community seemed like the best bet. Some of the people that I followed on that side of dA were Mintaka-TK, World-Hero21, TheArtFrog, and the main antagonist of our story: Akhnaton-II.

We fast forward to 2018. I see that Trump was less of a lame duck than I'd thought he'd be, and I realized that "Anti-SJWs are just disgruntled liberals" was a flat-out lie with how they reacted to the election of AOC. So by this time, I had become far more receptive to "progressive" ideas.

It was a calm spring day that year. I logged onto DeviantArt, went to Akhnaton-II's page, and found that he posted an incendiary graphic: "ONLY 1-2% of pedophiles commit CSA. Don't promote hate towards innocent people."

I was curious, and I clicked on it. I read the description and he actually made a very good argument as to how the statistic was reached and how it mattered. He condemned CSA as much as anyone, but he said that "hey, maybe we shouldn't conflate that and pedophiles as a group of people." He even cited a few scientific articles explaining how not all child molesters were pedophiles, making the case that sexual attraction wasn't the leading cause of rape.

I looked in the comment section to try to find a convincing counter-argument. I ended up even more impressed with Akh, as the comments were literally just strawmen ("Why are you defending pedophiles?"), ad hominem attacks ("Someone check this guy's hard drive."), or otherwise missing the point.

Noone could actually debunk it. It was the truth that nobody wanted to hear, and I could not wait for what Akh had to say next.

I then found a slightly older graphic he made: "I want YOU to support NOMAPs!". It was this graphic that gave the "pedophile that doesn't touch children" a name: a non-offending minor attracted person. This was someone whose only "desire" was to safely engage in their fantasies in peace, and who deserved as much human respect as you or I did.

And of course, he was met with the same anti-intellectual response in the comments there. It was official. I stumbled upon the most controversial truth ever put to the web.

That November, Tumblr announced their ban on porn.

[to be continued]

Here's some map flags (yes all of them :3) #mappride #map #aam #mapcommunity

A new infographic. #nomap #mapcommunity repost, please.

gl killing the entire population of earth

RT @RominaAshrafi@twitter.com

What I'd do to an anti if I saw them irl.

#antimap #antimapcommunity #EndMAPHatred #StartAntiHatred #mappositivity #mapcommunity

🐦🔗: https://twitter.com/RominaAshrafi/status/1279397502157033472