Still trying to take care of my end of year bills. They’ve now officially cut my hours at work and any previously set schedules are no longer guaranteed. Donations are crucial and greatly appreciated as I work for getting a replacement job. Thank you.

CashApp: $PEgypt
GoFundMe: https://gofund.me/1076dbfa

#meltdown #toxicworklife #audhd #severeburnout #wtf #supportneeded #donationsneeded
#toxicworkplaces #ableismaritsfinest #toomuch #meltdowncentral #toxicworkplaces #ableismaritsfinest #toomuch #meltdowncentral #ableistpractices #audhd #adhd #autism #cagent #livinghell #tryingtomakendsmeet #pleasedonate #shouldquit #cantquit #pleasehireme #makeaccommodationsaccessible #toomuchchange #corporategreed #sinkingship #autistok #audhatiktok #adhdtiktok #autismtiktok #latedx #selfdx #makeitmakesense #ableistdisabledproductcompany #ableist #bullshit #mutualaid #mutualaidrequest #pleasedonate #pleasesupport

Asked my supervisor about that email this morning - here’s how it went:
🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 you’re no help Brian. #toxicworkplaces #ableismaritsfinest #toomuch #meltdowncentral #ableistpractices #audhd #adhd #autism #ccagent #livinghell #tryingtomakendsmeet #pleasedonate #shouldquit #cantquit #pleasehireme #makeaccommodationsaccessible #toomuchchange #corporategreed
#Sinkingship #autistok #audhdtiktok #adhdtiktok #autismtiktok #lated× #selfdx #makeitmakesense #ableistdisabledproductcompany

Me: “I’m gonna need us to have a shortish meeting today or tomorrow if possible so you can explain this to me. Because I saw it last night and had a full blown meltdown out of confusion and frustration. So I’m gonna need some clarity.”

Supervisor: “All it means is that they are going to be going off your stats. If you are in group one then you keep what ever shift you have. If you are in group 2 or three then there will be a shift bid.”

Me: “A shift bid? So what happens if you lose the bid?”

Supervisor: “I'm not sure exactly how they will work it but there should be multiple shifts that you would choose from. We are having a TLS meeting tomorrow and so I'm sure they will let us know more about it then. So once I find out more information on it I'll let you know.”

…. If it’s any indication of how severe my burnout has become compared to this time last year - I looked at my total income from Jan-Dec 2021 and then compared it to Jan-Dec 1st of this year - and I will have made half as much income this year than I did last year, for all the times/days I couldn’t just “suck it up” and/or I felt personally attacked and pushed out by management when it came to this company with their continuously changing and toxic policies/decisions and/or increasingly impossible expectation raising in attempts to budget cut and weed out more and more people so pushing them to quit so they don’t have to fire them and pay the consequence. I knew the number would be a little lower this year between the budget cuts and the days I’ve had to cut short or skip altogether b/c severe meltdowns but I didn’t realize how bad till now. I need a new job. I need to be able to pay my bills. I need to be supported. Fck. - I think I’m gonna be sick. #audhdandemployed #hostileworkplace #underpaidoverworked #stuckinhell #cantmakeendsmeet #newjobneeded #meltdowncentral #help #neverendingburnout #audhd #actuallyautistic #adhd #sensoryhell #micromanagingnightmare #peoplenotrobots #makeaccomodationsaccessible #invisibledisability #audhdintheworkplace #neurotypicalprivilege

Well - I can feel a meltdown and some spiraling coming on - one more work day this pay cycle I have to clock out of barely into it because of things out of my control. Another $60 down the drain that I can’t afford to lose. If anyone wants to help me pay bills this coming week - since now I know I won’t be able to - cash app $pegypt

#mutualaid #toxicemployers #shittysoftware #shittyinternet #underpaidoverworked #audhd #nosupports #audhdandemployeed #burnout #meltdowncentral #neednewjob #adhd #actuallyautistic #micromanagementhell #sensorynightmare

Has anyone experimented w/ cbd drops or high dosage cbd low dosage thc drops/pens/gummies? Whether that’s for anxiety, stress, the ever running hamster wheel of an audhd or adhd brain, or to help ease meltdowns and shutdowns? If so - please share with me your experiences b/c I’ve been looking into it lately as a way to decrease my meltdown triggering sensitivities and/or at least help ease me when I have them since my burn out has gotten so bad that last 8-10 months that it seems I’m triggered by almost anything these days and meltdowns if not shutdowns are almost a daily occurrence now. #cannabis #cbd #thc #meltdowncentral #audhd #adhd #autism #stress #burnout #makeitstop