I know I post about MS a LOT but it’s new for me and it’s a LOT to take in. I also know there are bigger problems in Our World, which makes me feel guilty for even being upset or emotional about it and I TRY to “ tough bitch” my way through most days with edgy humor, however other days, like today, I just sit and sip my coffee and cry. Yep, I’m a big Ol’ bawl baby today. Fucking hate it.
#MyMFMSLife
#MSfuckery
#FuckShitDamnHell
#ThatsAll

DAMN MS! I HATE IT! 😭💔
I don’t know HOW I did it BUT somehow I purchased tickets at the @foxtheatrestl for SIX and NOT Les Misérables! I don’t know WHAT I did! Not that SIX doesn’t look AMAZING, and I know my sister and I will have a blast at our first show together (and I was SO relieved to see it’s about Henry VIII) but I am absolutely gutted! #MSLearningCurveSucksASS
#MyMFMSLife

What does MS look like? Well today, it was me crying, while driving home, after working a full day. EVERYTHING👏IN👏MY👏BODY👏HURTS👏 From the tips of my fingers, clear down to my toes.
I’m utterly exhausted. 😭
#MyMFMSLife

Fuck balls! My lower back feels like someone is trying to skewer me with a dull knife! And my right leg feels weird AF…and I’m TRYING to work! I hate this shit!
#MyMFMSLife
#MSizaBitch
#StrangeThings
#FuckShitDamnHell

Me 2 Dr: My lower back, legs & feet get all weird, tingly & by the end of the day feel all heavy & my right leg drags a bit. I’ve even had to use my arm to left my leg up enough to get into my car a few times, it’s gotten so bad. Is all this MS related?
Dr. 2 Me: No, those things are NOT MS related. It’s because your FAT & need to lose weight.
Dr. 2 Me: Now, here’s half a dozen info packets on different meds you can choose one. Read them over & pick one, then call us.
Me: 👀😳🥺😡🤬🤯🖕🏻
#MyMFMSLife

Lort, I am SO tired. Trying to work while waiting to start treatment AND disability to be approved is one of the hardest things have had to do. Half my face is numb, my neck hurts, my right arm doesn’t want to work and my back and legs feels like I’m trying to walk through sludge…😭
NOT a good day!
#MSizaBitch
#MSfuckery
#MyMFMSLife
I just want to throw a fit and say “fuck this shit” and go home!

So, I have to tell ya about my spa day yesterday. The last three or four times, I’ve gone to the same girl (she’s F’n AWESOME) anyway she’d asked if there was any thing new or any spots she needed to focus on…So, I told her that since my last visit with her, I’d been diagnosed with MS.
Her face just DROPPED, she put her hand to her heart and said “Oh! My condolences”.
And before I could catch myself I said “ Jesus, I’m not DEAD” 😂 then we both started laughing.
#MyMFMSLife 😂😂😂😂