#mymother asked me whether i would mind her doing less rice then (since my sisters were not coming for dinner). she said it in a way that was also somehow implying that #myfather was napping in their bedroom… [my #dream ended here.]

(so my mother is still thinking about feeding us? haha. it was so very lovely—so warm & sweet—to see her again, even it was only in my dream… #imissyou. #iloveyou.)

#mymother asked me whether i would mind her doing less rice then (since my sisters were not coming for dinner). she said it in a way that was also somehow implying that #myfather was napping in their bedroom… [my #dream ended here.]

(so my mother is still thinking about feeding us? haha. it was so very lovely—so warm & sweet—to see her again, even it was only in my dream… #imissyou. #iloveyou.)

[my #dream continues…] wanting to clean my eyes, i went to switch on the bright white(!) light in that bathroom and shocked to find the big roll of toilet paper on the wall getting all messed up!

then #mymother came out from the brightly lit kitchen! she was dressed elegantly in a sweater (probably knitted herself) and a skirt, holding her hands in such a way so she wouldn’t get things wet. i went to ask her if they (my sisters) had dumped her (from their shopping trip); she said no.

[my #dream continues…] wanting to clean my eyes, i went to switch on the bright white(!) light in that bathroom and shocked to find the big roll of toilet paper on the wall getting all messed up!

then #mymother came out from the brightly lit kitchen! she was dressed elegantly in a sweater (probably knitted herself) and a skirt, holding her hands in such a way so she wouldn’t get things wet. i went to ask her if they (my sisters) had dumped her (from their shopping trip); she said no.

part of the #sadness comes from the fact that how #singing & #music are basically #célinedion's life, like she said and as we all know.

also kind of "silly" that it usually takes someone else's #suffering for us to learn about others. #empathy is good but not enough. this makes me question myself, how much do i really understand #myfather's #struggle with his #health right now? i heard #mymother once said if she could, she would take+feel the #pain from my sister…wish we could. i wish we could.

part of the #sadness comes from the fact that how #singing & #music are basically #célinedion's life, like she said and as we all know.

also kind of "silly" that it usually takes someone else's #suffering for us to learn about others. #empathy is good but not enough. this makes me question myself, how much do i really understand #myfather's #struggle with his #health right now? i heard #mymother once said if she could, she would take+feel the #pain from my sister…wish we could. i wish we could.