Ho bisogno di tornare alle radici. Quel piccolo dojo non esiste più e mi manca il suo Sangha.

I need to go back to the roots. That little dojo no longer exists and I miss its Sangha.

#riflessioninotturne #NightThoughts #buddhadharma #iwasthere

Just sitting here thinking about starting a sticker shop on etsy. Maybe it would be fun, maybe I just like the idea of printing a bunch of stickers, or maybe I need a new job. I don’t know yet #nightthoughts #stickers #bidness

In the Adams family values Debbie demands $20 in exchange for a kiss.
Adjusted for inflation that's $41.78 today.

Im not sure where I'm going with this, But I went to the trouble of working it out so figured I would share.

#nightThoughts

I'm finding my own inner resources too. This all increases my love of being with others thru their own life's losses, transitions, & transformation. It speaks to the amazing power humans carry towards learning, growth & evolution.
End/ #nightthoughts ✨ sweet dreams ✨

of fellow humans & evoke their inner wisdom, is so meaningful. I may have had a longer route, or been a late bloomer, but I am thankful to truly be in a career that reflects what I value.

My own therapist helped me do my own resourcing & I sat in the comfort of the reminder of one of my very important buffers. Having a partner who the mere image of them can bring the physical sense of protection & safety is a privilege.
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I validate that sometimes that's how life feels. I normalize it, connecting to the sheer truth of existence & humanity. ✨

After the life transformation it has been to leave a high demand religion & lose community & many relationships, to re-grieve a brother w/o spiritual bypassing, & the FIL who was the father I didn't have but always needed; no longer having the assurance of eternity I once counted on, sitting & bearing witness to the myriad of struggles
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But I am bound & determined to graduate in May!!! Even if my mom's results aren't good. This 3 yr program started in 2020 & life hasn't let up yet. If I believed in such things it may have felt like the universe is trying to jinx it. 😖

But on the upside, as a therapist intern, I do think it all has upped my compassion by a thousand degrees lol

For anybody coming in & feeling like the world is against them, I can just sit w/ them in that space w/no need to rush
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then because of that emotional depletion...I proscrastinated homework till today. Still, I got ahead of the game after my coding assignment & completed my freaking reading journal (which is such busy work you would think by grad school level they'd stop that. Surprise, surprise they don't.)

It's just been a rough month. My birthday was January 9th. My father-in-law passed away Jan 1st from cancer. His funeral ended up being on the 9th. hello 2023 😳
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'Revenge bedtime procrastination refers to the decision to delay sleep in response to stress or a lack of free time earlier in the day.'

I think I've been low energy this weekend so it's harder to say for sure if they above is why I'm still up. My intense therapy session yesterday after my mom's minor surgery & the idea of her going before my dad realy triggered me. She's the buffer for the family bet. him & us. I'm so not ready for that...😩

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This…

#oitnb
#nightthoughts
#sadtruth

Update: Still awake. Plan to wake up early tomorrow to make shakshuka for the fam is status yellow. #NightThoughts

Non è tutto dovuto, non è tutto scontato
#nightthoughts

I can't sleep, and so decided to go on a #tiktok rampage, watching all of the videos that people have made talking about the U2 album release on Apple music hahahahaha.

I still remember that shit and my stomach turns with anger... And now I use Spotify

#apple #u2 #nightthoughts #music #2010s

I can't sleep, and so decided to go on a #tiktok rampage, watching all of the videos that people have made talking about the U2 album release on Apple music hahahahaha.

I still remember that shit and my stomach turns with anger... And now I use Spotify

#apple #u2 #nightthoughts #music #2010s

We should have called them "help messages", not "error messages".
Nobody wants to deal with error messages.

#programming #nightthoughts

I recently read something really fucked up but also very true:

“You can keep living in the past, but there’s no one there anymore”.

#melancholy
#nightthoughts

There's no such thing as a "broken family." Family is family, and is not determined by marriage certificates, divorce papers, and adoption documents. Families are made in the heart. The only time family becomes null is when those ties in the heart are cut. If you cut those ties, those people are not your family. If you make those ties,those people are your family. And if you hate those ties, those people will still be your family because whatever you hate will always be with you.

#nightthoughts

There are three reasons to do things in life:

1) You are obligated to do them - paying taxes, etc.
2) You genuinely enjoy doing them - hobbies, etc.
3) They serve as a means to a desired end - education, etc.

Spend your time wisely.

#NightThoughts

What a #stormy night.

#lightning #thunderstorm #nightthoughts #soundon

On a pack of Angel Soft toilet paper, they have a baby with wings. Am I to believe that this child is an angel? If that's the case, how did this kid become an angel? Did God create this angel in the form of a baby? Did a child die, and then became an angel? Just think about the implications of that the next time you walk the toilet paper aisle. #NightThoughts