Aye. Art by Shawn Coss #MentalHealth #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #SelfLoathing #SelfPunishment

@LeatherCubAndrew Ahm wi ye. #GenderFluid #Trans #Pansexual #Kinkster #Fetish #FetLife #Neurodivergent #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #OCPD #PTSD #SuicidalIdeations #ExtremeSelfLoathing.

Well I've discontinued my mental health care. Sacked both my therapist (#7) and my psychiatrist (#2). Let the fun begin! #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia #PTSD #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #SelfLoathing

Ah will suffer alongside ye but ye must NEVER count on meh. Ah nae really know how much longer mah monsters will let meh live. Art by Shawn Coss #MentalHealthAwareness #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Suicidalideations #Dysthymia #OCPD #SelfLoathing

#OCPD

Today"s term is: "Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria" I suffer frae this and what it means is that I am unable tae cope with any form of #rejection emotionally. Itsnae that I go cray-cray, it means that I withdraw completely because I blame mahself. I donnae express #attraction face tae face, and I normally keep my #crushes tae mahsel. I also suffer frae severe #SelfLoathing and #OCPD. i am only outgoing if the situation is on mah terms. Otherwise I am VERY #shy. Art by Shawn Coss

#OCPD #ObsessivCompulsivePersonalityDisorder

When a place what is supposed tae be open but isnae, that is breaking a pattern and triggers #anxiety what commonly manifests as #anger. Yep #OCPD is just fucking lovely. #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth

ugh i have to stop and go feed myself #ocpd

It is so defeating when you hae things like #Dysthymia, #OCPD, #SelfLoathing and such. My biggest fears include being perceived as uninteresting or idiotic. Ahv spent most of my life wi people what #ignore me ootright, or totally forgetting wut ah sayit an hour ago. I know ahm #irrelevant and hae NAE idea why o'er 600 people follow meh when only aboot 5 ever interact wi meh. If I ahm just a wee statistic followed only fur a follow-back, then get tae fuck, seriously. #Nobody

If I get something wrong, PLEASE correct meh. #Failure = #Learning, and as one what suffers frae #OCPD, it's quite critical that I DAE learn frae my #mistakes.

Actually the right thing to say is that my brain lights up like the auroras when I am faced with such extensive possibilities. In the past I have explored sample-based work, and I was a big stickler about making my own sounds. But one strong aspect of my #OCPD is that I have perfectionism. /2

When yer watch guy is fannying aboot sending on yer fucking chronograph. #Watches #Swiss #Impatient #OCPD

Please keep the promises ye make. Those of us with #OCPD appreciate that. I broken promise, intentional or no, beaks a pattern and we are VERY pattern dependent.

How my brain works:

I pull a cable out from behind some gear and it makes some kind of resonant knocking sounds as it cones out.

This little thing will become part of a new sort of melody that I am always singing to myself, repeatedly, like a never-ending, ever-present minimal piece as an earworm.

My therapist thinks it might a kind of comfort mechanism. I used to sing and rock myself to sleep until I was a teenager.

For as long as I can remember I am singing to myself.

#OCPD #brainstuff

@louche_librarian I suffer frae several mental illnesses. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent and #SuicidalIdeations for over 40 year. Add #Dysthemia #OCPD #PTSD and severe #SelfLoathing (Everything is well diagnosed). There are many times that I get this way...I hae nae control over it. My Psychotherapist and Psychiatrist hae me on both a treatment plan and safety plan. 3 attempts, one VERY close tae success (damnit), and ahv lost count of the times ahv been detained fur it lol.

@AutisticAdam @actuallyautistic THIS! People wi #OCPD are the same. We cannae live wi'oot patterns and logic. Unfinished business just eats at us.

I've never known #joy or lasting #happiness. What passes for that in my brain is distraction, amusement, and at best a lack of impact...neutral. Before you call me #emo or dramatic, I hae a very broke brain and suffer several mental illnesses. Anyone else oot there like me? I fucking hope nae. #MentalHealth #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dysthymia, #PTSD, #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations, #SevereSelfLoathig. #IAmVeryBroken #YouCanNotHelp

I think I finally got it thru mah #Psychiatrist heid that my #SuicidalIDeations and extreme #SelfHatred innae gaen anywhere, hence untreatable. I want tae attempt tae enjoy life whatever that means, but I will always want suicide as an option. I think she finally gets it. #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent, #Dysthymia #OCPD #PTSD #Neurodivergent #IAmVeryBroken #YouShouldReallyRun

FUCK...Ah miss Layne Staley so much. Ah miss Mike Starr, Chris Cornell, and Kurt Cobain. When the tide, hour, and moon is right, ahl come a'lookin fur ye. All artwork by Shawn Coss #MajorDepressiveDisorderRecurrent #Dyshymia #OCPD #SuicidalIdeations #IAmVeryBroken #LetMeGo