Yay, Local 2 & I made our partnership official last night!

Also nice saying "I love you" in person after I delayed bringing it up last week.

Then I ate 1/3 of the cheesecake he brought me and drove him wild.

Then I woke him up this morning with about 15 minutes of fondling before I went straight to "Magic Wand + mouth."

Then I was sure he was awake, because he called me a good girl 💝

#PolyFats #SCWOTZ #SCWKink

And delightfully, it's mutual, which Logical Me figured, but BPD me was far too anxious to believe until we talked.

Our biggest love languages are slightly different, my brain was waiting for the one it understood, so I couldn't possibly be misinterpreting.

So now logical and BPD me are dancing

#PolyFats #SCWOTZ

#PolyFats:

After being unnerved by Possession (1983) and an evening of snuggling and kvetching about our tough weeks,

I finally told LP2 I loved him after he went home.

After the drama and chaos in possession, we talked about exes with bad boundaries all night, so it felt weird to throw out there immediately, so instead,

I picked his brain about a "normal" timeframe for developing feels when we were texting later, and finally said it instead of continuing to beat around the bush.

#SCWOTZ

Took some pictures of LP1 ( @Ironicdruid ) in their new jockstrap today for their sugar daddy (who also gifted them that cute lil kalimba in pic 1).

They said I could share these.

WOOF.

y'all don't know the willpower required not to jump them the whole time I was shooting these 🥵

#BeefCake #daddy #BigBoySeason #jockstrap #nonbinary #PolyFats #SCWOTZ #SCWKink

I suppose two months and a series of overnights plus a weekend isn't too bizarrely soon to tell him I love him.

But I'm BPD AF so my metric for when "normal" people say that and it's not a brow-raiser is way off.

Why don't I agonize over when to tell LP1? We jumped that hurdle well over a month and a half ago, and I didn't say it first for once. 😂

Some of my friends are like JUST DO IT and I'm like, "Building new boundary standards are hard! I'm not sure!"

#PolyFats #SCWOTZ

#PolyFats:

After a week of busting my ass, I'm ready to go sleep over with LP1 tomorrow night, and have LP2 over for his normal visit on Saturday.

I mentioned being excited about LP2 bringing me cookies - he informed me he's also bringing me new pillows "because the old ones are curse and Princess deserves better than that."

...dude.🫠

I find it charming and beneficial he's making my bedroom more comfortable for himself too. 🥰

Still debating finally dropping the L-word to him this weekend.

Him, pulling out the box max and cheese: I also brought sour cream to make it extra creamy for you!

Me: 😍 you're the best.

(He knows how I love my sour cream mac and cheese. And he put paprika in the finished product. Ugh, just cook for me every day, dude. 🤤)

#SCWOTZ #PolyFats

#PolyFats NYE 2022:

LP2 is coming over to make mac and cheese and pecan bars, and celebrate NYE with NP & me.

He's also bringing poppers, because after I give him a massage, we're going to descend into a crazed fuckfest 💝

#SCWOTZ

But in non-stationary matters, he's been an absolute gem through the whole process of basically helping me finish moving into a room we've lived in for 2 years now.

He even bought me a new mattress cover and some wall hangers. He's been very helpful and generous.

I'm trying not to get hives from letting somebody help me this much 😅

In some ways, letting him spoil me is a growth exercise for myself after decades of trying to be invisible and need nothing.

#SCWOTZ #PolyFats

LRT about being a #PlannerPerson: https://mastodon.lol/@sugarCunt/109608915802453534

Local Partner 2's bedroom cleanup support has been rigorous.

He threw away a ziplock full of 4-year-old washi tape and I had to swallow the impulse to have a conniption.

At least he let me keep the washi tape in my little plastic tape dispenser... 😂

...the thin plastic line between my sanity and primal scrëm at having my #stationary threatened! AHHH!

#SCWOTZ #PolyFats

My first little "challenge" from L2 was to try and eat a dozen donuts.

Bless L1, who was totally onboard when I said,

"Would you take a photo of a bunch of donuts on my ass for this dude I'm talking to?" 😂💖

#SCWOTZ #PolyFats #SCWPic #SCWKink #NSFW #lewd #donuts

Here's some gratitude for my concluding day:

L2 had a date with a new person that went well!

L1 is recovering from an ER visit and feeling much better after treatment.

NP walked to grab us dinner even though she doesn't have gloves 😭

A comet partner is getting some hopefully definitive and helpful medical care.

I worked on my gender anthology piece even though I wanted to hibernate.

L2 is coming over for another date on Saturday, can't think of better Xmas Eve company 💝

#SCWOTZ #PolyFats

Relaxing after a long evening of cleaning my room with the help of L2. Super helpful to have somebody able-bodied and with no investment in NP's or my mess make some big changes my NP couldn't get around to.

I'll finally be able to use my desk soon!

Wow, that sure was nice of him. 🥰

#polyFats #SCWOTZ

Er, it influenced the shape of our knowledge of each other, but didn't define it

(When asked more about my mom after discussing our childhoods, I started out by saying, "Okay so here's why I've got #BPD" 😂)

Playing everything reasonably close to the vest initially made it feel much easier for me to accept his voluntary help and kindness without feeling weird and guilty

It just feels more chill foundationally, even though I'm pretty sure he's already a Favorite Person

#polyFats #SCWOTZ #SCWNT

L2 & I, massive nerds W mental health special interests & big helpers,

also made the wise decision to wait a few months before we deeply disclosed our traumas.

Neither of us wanted to do some weird trauma navel-gazing bonding.

we both meet many people happy to lament, but relationships starting W it haven't fared well.

Once we discussed, it was more of a milestone of trust and vulnerability in casual conversation than something that shapes our knowledge of one another. #SCWOTZ #polyFats

I've been working hard to keep myself chill and just enjoy dating somebody without blurting out that I love them the minute I think I feel it

(because #BPD never sleeps 😂)

it's been a very intentional part of building newer relationships with healthier #boundaries.

But the real trick now is figuring out... When is it *not* weird to say it to him? 🤔

#polyFats #SCWOTZ

#polyFats: Excited for L2 to come spend the night again tonight.

Sweet as always, he's proactively offered help so NP & I can live more functionally in my tiny room.

(We're 2 #AuDHD ppl, we never finished unpacking almost 2yrs ago, and I am always so very tired)

He's bringing a drill and level to help me finish hanging shelves I bought when I moved in, a small bookshelf, a fuckton of hangers,

& caramel brownies.

Jeeze, could he *be* more boyfriend material? 😳

#SCWOTZ #polyamory #polyam

Anyway, today, I'm grateful for:

My NP's personal work and her willingness to communicate with me,

The work I've done to change a significant number of codependent habits from the last 20ish years,

L2's delightful company and tendency to utterly adore and spoil me,

being on Masto so my friends who actually wanted to read my #polyam #polyFats diaries and get advice from them can actually see my posts again! (14/14) ❤️

#kitchentable #ENM #polyamory #nonmonogamy #relationships

So, when I came up with the PolySaturated Fats idea #polyFats

(🐦🔗: https://twitter.com/SugarCunt/status/1365868575253172226?s=20&t=rtprnXoEXNj9VUuzWPQbfw )

it was to give some anecdotal insight into being very fat and very nonmonogamous.

So here's how it went having a local partner stay the night at my house (where I live with my nesting partner) for the first time (dynamic/etiquette-wise, not slamming-wise.) 🧵 (1/?)

#polyamory #polyamfam #polyam #nonmonogamy #ENM #nonmonomous

Local Partner-person 2 is coming over to spend the night on Saturday and I'm so excited.

As usual, he is bringing me many, many delicious treats. This week's brownies will have coconut on top. Will they be better than the double-nut pan he made me a couple weeks ago? Only time will tell... but I'm definitely getting brownies and french toast and kisses, so there's no "lose" in this scenario if they aren't.

And I think we'll finally get a chance to see Skinamarink AHHH FINALLY YES.

#polyFats