Living in #CripTime again.
I have a hospital appointment but am not sure if the doctor still works there. I might have needed to call before to make sure but didn't.
Rather wanted to meet a friend. Then got scared that I should speak to doctor. So now I am not meeting my friend and not sure if the doctor will even be there. Why do I mess things up?
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#PublicDiary I have been wondering if it us really helpful to know that you are #Chronicallylll

My mom didn't. Just lived her life and then died kind of early.

I do and I spend a lot of time trying to avoid that fate.

She got to be sporty and fearless.

I am not fit , no sports allowed, constantly worrying. At the doctors every couple of weeks.

What would you chose?

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Spending my time waiting at the hospital again

I could do stuff instead

Healthy people do stuff, create, write
While disabled people wait

there is nothing more lonely than being with a person who doesnt care to be with you.

I´d rather be alone than this type of lonely.

To be honest I´d rather be with someone who cares.
But I am not going to change this someone into caring.

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Realised today that I am really bad at speaking "boss" like knowing what any boss wants me to do.

Todays example:
My colleague got it the first time. I managed to convince them that it could have been meant differently. But now our boss made it real clear that I was wrong and my colleague right.

Guess I will have to become self-employed...

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living in #CripTime

my operation got delayed again.

I am okay with it cos I want to get good care.

But having to tell everybody that I told the first date and having to answer questions about why it was delayed (I dont know) and how this is stressfull (I know...) feels like another job.

Also having to juggle to get help for a date that I dont know for sure is much more work than it should be.

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