These are the best holidays with the kids so far we spent together (at home).

I rearranged some things in the living room - in which I absolutely love the afternoon light ✨ - and we even cleaned the windows. I can’t believe it.🙀

There is lots of screen time as always, but I organized my and our free time in a satisfying way so that I get rest and my things done and do not feel stuck and frustrated most of the time.

#radicalacceptance #lifewithkids #regrettingparenthood #itgetsbetter

Often I feel so trapped inside this (parent) life.

Of course I grew and constantly grow because of these challenges, but I am not sure if I had really needed this in my personal development.

Most of the time I do not want this - the constant transgression of my personal boundaries.

#regrettingparenthood #boundaries

The (sensory, social and emotional) challenges coming with having kids overexert my capabilities almost constantly.

I try so so hard, but most of the time I totally hate every part of being a parent.

The noise, the touchiness, the messiness, the dirtiness, the need for constant emotional co-regulation, the never ending, transgressing demands, the shattered concentration.

#regrettingparenthood

Of course this is largely an unfair projection of my own experience (feeling completely trapped and out of place, #regrettingparenthood), what I assume to observe in such constellations of others (couple conflicts, #exhaustion) and what I learned from feminist discourse (structural #inequalities).

I can really not imagine anyone being happy living this way.

The left one I found very under-complex, weak in analysis and even providing „tips“ at the end - if structural deficiencies were solvable that easily and on an individual level.
The right one is strongly driven by a political, feminist impetus - which I generally like, but is kind of „in your face“ and repetitive here.

It was helpful to read the quotes and stories of the interviewed mothers and to feel less lonely and „wrong“ in my own experience.
#regrettingparenthood