Rejection #2 received (different story this time). #RSD fucking sucks heyyyy

If you have enjoyed my #writing at any point, now would be a good time to remind me.

#ADHD -induced #RSD means I never tell anyone when they've hurt me let alone would I dream of asking for an apology.

This time I vowed to do it. I even medicated 30m earlier than usual to make sure the full dose was behind me (it seems to completely zap RSD).

It was no problem!

It didn't even have to be an intense "we need to talk" scenario. Just a casual "hey, that seemed a little over the top and it made me sad".

Not sure I got 100% what I was looking for, but what a huge step and relief.

Rejection sensitivity, ADHD drain, and the power of failure (Weston’s story) from the ADHD Ah-Ha! podcast https://player.fm/1BYsxjY

#adhd #rsd #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria #failure

Proud of myself for writing two more chapters of my book last night after wanting to throw it in the trash and give up for good after interviewing book editors this week. I know that’s a brain gremlin reaction, but if I’m going to get this book done I’m going to need either an editor who understands and can work with RSD or a book coach who understands RSD to help me navigate the process of working with an editor who doesn’t.

Referrals welcome.

#amwriting #nonfiction #rsd #adhd #AuDHD

If you've had any luck improving or getting over #RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria), please let me know how you did it. It's pretty severe for me. I'm constantly worried everyone is mad or disappointed with me and it makes me pretty miserable.

@Allonon

I'm certainly not suggesting that you shouldn't live life on your own terms. Just pointing out that choosing isolation to avoid #rsd can, for some, be the ultimate feeling of rejection.

@Allonon

You underestimate the power of the average #adhd person. #Rsd is a whole thing.

The YOU’RE A FAILURE WHI CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT voice is very very loud.

#MentalHealth #RSD

#vinyl #MikeOldfield #TubularBells 2 #rsd 🤩🤩🤩🤩

#ptsd #bipolar #rsd how rsd feels sometimes

@TheLastOfHisName "inside your head" because #adhd #rsd means you don't dare tell anyone to be quiet, speak up or wait a minute.

First week on meds, this was one of the biggest changes for me. "Oh hey, it looks like you are done. Can I get back in there?"

Visualize being allowed to take up space.

@hpkomic I'm glad. I've since learned I probably have a touch of #RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria) and that's why destructive criticism crushes me flat.

I dont know who needs to hear this

Rejection sensitive dysphoria (#RSD) is a problem that interferes with your ability to regulate your emotional responses to feelings of failure and rejection. While rejection is almost always unpleasant, people with RSD experience overwhelming levels of emotional pain. This can lead to long-term mental health issues, fear of failure and behavior changes that negatively affect them throughout their lives.

More info:
https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/24099-rejection-sensitive-dysphoria-rsd

Argh. TFW you have texts/emails out to like, four people, and none of them REPLY INSTANTLY....

::puff::puff::wheeze::

#RSD #ADHD

Here's one of my favorite "get around my own brain" tricks to deal with anxiety about how a post will be received

Sometimes I write whole essays just to convince myself I did something, & then get self-conscious.

So I publish them at 2 AM when no one else is likely to ever see them.

The system is working out great on my blog, & pretty well here in the Fediverse too. The community is awake 24/7, but my feed still quiets down in (my) night shift.

#Adhd #RSD #AmWriting

Feeling like I'm a walking experiment for #RSD lately. The lexapro takes it down a notch, but I'm still having to juggle other stuff to throw at it more than daily.

I really need this diagnosis and need meds to help it. Trying to work through trauma while being unable to feel any feelings without spiraling TF out is too much.

The number of times I have to say/think the phrase "I know they didn't mean anything by it" when my #RSD gets triggered by something innocuous but still wildly invalidating should earn me actual money because it's so much labor

#RejectionSensitivity #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria #AuDHD #ADHD #ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyAuDHD #ActuallyADHD

Really feeling like my RSD has been heightened quite a bit lately for some reason. And my usual response more often than not is flight rather than fight.

I'm glad it is getting into summer. I'm hoping to spend a lot more time outdoors this year to keep my mind occupied rather than spiral down the internet/social media rabbit hole that tends to instigate this a lot.

#RSD #actuallyautistic #autism

#np #Prince - “Lady Cab Driver” from the LP 1999 (1983) 💿 🎵 👌 This is the 1-LP 2018 #RecordStoreDay pressing... #vinyl #RSD #funk #soul #rnb #80smusic

I need to go to bed, so for now I’ll close off with Jazz Emu’s most recent video which has been playing on loop in my head for the past two weeks 😅. This is the one is basically the ADHD Anthem. CW: dark-humor references to self-harm. https://youtu.be/EbdeVhPAbms
#JazzEmu #Funk #ADHD #RSD