a sudden pinprick
of old, undiluted shame
what do ideals cost?

#haiku #sadposting

Last updated 1 year ago

pink haired hobbit · @UnrealRonen
19 followers · 82 posts · Server computerfairi.es

Free me
Free me
Free me from this world
I don’t belong here

youtu.be/fATg3ZuNCsE

#sadposting

Last updated 2 years ago

I feel like an ogre a troll a creature who belongs under a bridge in a cave in a swamp in the dark a big lumbering THING with a giant gut dragging its hairy knuckles across the ground that shakes with every step.

#sadposting #genderdysphoria #dysphoria #InternalizedFatphobia #mentalillness #selfhate #SelfHatred #SelfLoathing

Last updated 2 years ago

I've never been small and I never will be small and I hate it I hate it so much I never wanted this I never wanted to be this I'll never have a body I don't hate even if I ever look feminine in other ways it'll always be undermined and overshadowed by how fucking huge I am.

#sadposting #genderdysphoria #dysphoria #InternalizedFatphobia #mentalillness #selfhate #SelfHatred #SelfLoathing

Last updated 2 years ago

I'm seriously like if two Tolkien elves gave birth to a Tolkien dwarf and it's worse than it sounds because I'd much rather be an elf! Being so stocky and big and broad and thick and hairy all over makes me feel so overwhelmingly dysphoric.

#sadposting #genderdysphoria #dysphoria #InternalizedFatphobia #mentalillness #selfhate #SelfHatred #SelfLoathing

Last updated 2 years ago

Apparently my father once went to a Halloween party in drag and thanks in part to his slender build and long legs he passed and even got hit on but no of course he didn't give me any of those traits just his bad eyesight yayyy. 😑

#sadposting #genderdysphoria #dysphoria #InternalizedFatphobia #mentalillness #selfhate #SelfHatred #SelfLoathing

Last updated 2 years ago

Mom was a leggy blonde with big tits who looked like Meryl Streep but did she give me any of those genes? Nope! Just the ADHD and BPD. 😒 Instead I inherited her dad's Mr. Potatohead body and Charlie Brown head. My father's contribution was equally worthless.

#sadposting #genderdysphoria #dysphoria #InternalizedFatphobia #mentalillness #selfhate #SelfHatred #SelfLoathing

Last updated 2 years ago

The times we live in are in fact worse than the apex of the pandemic 2 years ago.
Like, back then we were so down bad, that people had more of that "fuck it, let's get fvcked up, we gonna die anyway" mentality.
Escapism was also more accepted, because we were to stay home. The only down side was the social withdrawal and lack of raves.🧵

#Thread #COVID #rant #offmychest #downbad #sadposting #anxiety

Last updated 2 years ago

It doesn't feel like there's a "real me". I feel like nothing. People ask me questions about myself and my mind goes blank because there's nothing to me that exists independent of others or their interactions or perceptions.

#sadposting #sadpost #clusterbbitch #clusterbbitches #MentalIllness #mentalhealth #bpd #borderline #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #clusterb #clusterbpersonalitydisorder #clusterbpersonalitydisorders

Last updated 2 years ago

I have and I feel empty inside. Where most people have a stable, internally-derived sense of self, I have a black hole, a gaping bottomless pit remaining unchanged as it insatiably consumes every particle of affirmation or encouragement anyone wastes on me.

#borderlinepersonalitydisorder #sadposting #sadpost #clusterbbitch #clusterbbitches #MentalIllness #mentalhealth #bpd #borderline #clusterb #clusterbpersonalitydisorder #clusterbpersonalitydisorders

Last updated 2 years ago