Meditations on my mouth.

On the day I wrote this, I had an awkward morning. I wrote these 27 meditations down. I've been thinking that loving someone was the exercise I haven't done in years. #BeingSchizo #Schizotypal #WheelchairDiaries

1. You are the sweet giant Goddess coin bag, but I have to let you slide into default too, credit-line.
2. Your friends might be handsome, but you're who I came with. Your friends are handsome; and I'd love them to share in the bounties of my mints.
3. What I want to know about you is how many opportunities you make available to me. That's why I respect you when I do; I can finally remember you.
4. Sometimes my playlist starts with something you like; I like that about you.
5. Every time I remember the public record, I just want you to look at me and smile.
6. Coming back isn't what's stressful; but it is hell being someone who wants you to become better who don't know if they're wanted.
7. I will tell pretty much anybody that their tongue is built of cancer and needs cut out, but I think of the dancing partner of vitality when I remember that I'm talking to you.
8. To the person who doesn't have enough life experience, life experience claws at the certainly frustrating abyss.mal dis.optimized disappointment; and I want you to be my ward.
9. Everything I ever wanted as a mentor, I wanted out of high school. I joined the Big Brothers/Big Sisters/Big Ward Chaperone. 27. I wanted a plan of at least 27 directions on dimensions that do the spaces every time, and multiplying by five menus would be nice too; but people also like the number 7.
10. You had motion. I want to improve you by the time you're moving on.
11. If I could have you as my puppet for twenty seven days, twelve of them would lack your vibrancy partner.
12. Fuck the open source community. ...but they suck at communication. Abysses and fresh starts do that. With love and experience, new beginnings can get old. It was a bad day -post.- werd.- I did everything I can possibly administrate as a space to salvage them already.
13. Good boys make good Captains. The Captain wants to love you. Toucanes Feathers could grow from bags of sugary dead neighborhoods, and Po Xi Chan could be a beautiful sword dancing and business serious dark haired Valkariy in these gendered days, but loving you exceeds both life styles.
14. Sometimes you're getting your favorite thing by just being part of it. I like my riotous behavior with a temperance; but in the prescribed love affairs, I throw my fuck it to three sheets in the wind entirely reeking with flavorful spirited ethanol. Falling down drunk responsibly is nice every four months, as long as you start on the winter solstice. Do not invite witche's with foul behavior either, unless inviting a which is fun they can borrow a cup too. I wish you could always walk in and out of my house. [This writing was dedicated to whom it has been communicated [, by this humbled author,] already that it does concern incidental relation space overlap and known private records very recently at the time of writing, writes this humbled narrator of sanguine hints of community.]
15. I wanna open a franchise of brick and mortar places to support you. You don't need to ask for the support is the impossible height of my aspirations.
16. No woman truly wants a weeping willow; but to take the raging weeping willow and do a community with them, some risk may be necessary. Pack your bags to survive the adventure, and lets go sell the retail they didn't know they never medicinally had!
17. Physician, heal thy self. I'm going to need to see some I.D. I'm going to need to see some second opinion. I'm going to need to see Tennessee state franchises contracted to oversee Tennessee state medicine franchising programs in Nevada, and I'm going to need them to have fashion lines. I need to see motions or the world don't work right.
18. Do you need to check my privilege? Did you see my bags? Those are my marketing. They say I love you.
19. Tar Journal Dictfoot. I want to discover four thousand ways to make you happy; and I want them all to complete you.
20. I want to always have some fruit juice on hand you want to come to me for.
21. I want to always believe in your opportunities and potentials; and be a partner in finding the virtues of quality values in your requests.
22. I want you for three square siestas a day.
23. I want to be in service to your smile.
24. I want to be two hands on your hips and two hands on your touches strong together.
25. I want to bring about bringing mustard seeds and kingdoms to diplomatic tables of benefits and movements, and I want to bring you the moon from the sky. These overlap, incidentally.
26. I want to bring people to your favorite hobbies who will have found a love for similar tastes!
27. I want to love you in pantries, in books about the book of changes around a roaring fire, and in Christmas magnets making a compass from a table. These delicate changes will love you while embracing you.

I'm not someone to carelessly post screenshots to demean anyone in any way. What I don't like is when other people think it is okay to shame & stigmatize others because of their #MentalHealth. Mental health already gets enough stigma to its name and we all need to be a little kinder to each other. We never really know what someone is going through. Everyone has a battle they are facing every day.

#MentalIllness #BPD #BorderlinePersobalityDisorder #ADHD #Neurodivergent #Disability #DisabilityTwitter #Disabled #DisabilityJustice #Mastodon #PTSD #CPTSD #Schizophrenia #Schizotypal #PersonalityDisorder #Bipolar #Anxiety #Depression

Here's a reminder that #psychosis isn't always fun and neither is being locked up because of it.

#ActuallySchizophrenic #Schizophrenic #Schizophrenia #Schizospec #Schizotypal

dropping #schizocore as a #schizospec ONLY tag because 'schizoposting' shit is always non schizos.

sane people touch this tag and ill stomp you to death with my hooves.

[more tags: #schizotypal #schizophrenia #schizoaffective #schizoid #schizophreniform #schizophreniaspectrum #stpd #szpd #madpride]

wait i never made my #intro did i. oops!

hi, i'm crow! my pronouns are fey/feyr, it/its, 🦷/🦷s, and &/&s. i'm probably ~19 and my birthday is 10/29 (body is 17). you can call me whatever the word for "crow" is in the language you speak (ie cuervo, ijo waso pimeja, koraki)!

my tribe is the charrúa people, though i'm also distantly descended from the inca (& the saintess of Latine Indians/Natives, which is pretty cool). right now, i live in the DC Metro Area on turtle island :)

my main shtick is that i'm #borderline, #schizotypal, #plural, #autistic, and a #cripple. i'm also a #transfemasc #transsexual butch #dyke and i like to chew on xenogenders!

i have #polyfragmented BPD, hence the display name crow&, but prefer to be referred to as singular. i sometimes call the collection of crows 'the murder,' because it's a good pun.

i'm also sleepy. oh wait i also have a brain/spine injury so i forget a lot of shit and have migraines constantly, so, sorry, and if you dont CW eyestrain & screenreader hostile things properly i'll bite you

ask me about my special interests i will talk about them a normal amount :3

EASE: Examination of Anomalous Self-Experience

Description of a scale for rating the intensity of "self-disorders," distorted perceptions of self which are common in schizophrenia, schizotypal personality disorder, and in people at high risk for schizophrenia.

Useful for its concise descriptions of these experiences. Skip to p. 240 if desired.

http://sci-hub.tw/10.1159/000088441

#Schizophrenia #Schizotypal #SPD #Self #Selfhood #Consciousness

Phenomenology of Anomalous Self-Experience in Early Schizophrenia

Key paper on disturbances in the experience of self before & during the onset of #Schizophrenia.

These phenomena appear to be a highly characteristic feature of the "schizophrenia spectrum."

It's possible to skip some thick prose and pick up at p. 124 if desired.

http://sci-hub.tw/10.1053/comp.2003.50017

#Psychosis #SPD #Schizotypal #Selfhood #Consciousness #Ipseity