Trevor - The Vitruvian Meeple · @vitruvianmeeple
227 followers · 1484 posts · Server dice.camp

When I got out of the shower this morning, the child's morning music was playing. Specifically, "Don't Worry, Be Happy." I started quietly singing along, and got to one of the many repetitions of the song's title.

And then I *specifically made it a point* to move in front of the mirror, point at my reflection, and say "Except you. You don't deserve to be happy."

And then seamlessly went back to what I was doing.

#wtf #fml #selfhatred

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GryphonSK · @GryphonSK
253 followers · 2710 posts · Server techhub.social
Papigoe :trans_heart: · @KiltedQueer
726 followers · 1854 posts · Server mstdn.social
KiltedQueer :trans_heart: · @KiltedQueer
697 followers · 1594 posts · Server mstdn.social

For all the c*nts what keep telling me that ah'd be more attractive if I smiled moar. Art by Shawn Coss.

#selfhatred #Depression

Last updated 1 year ago

VerÄ‘andi K Soldusty · @Soldusty
73 followers · 2566 posts · Server home.social

@KiltedQueer
and are vile demons to have. When my depression quietly kicks off it helps these two horrors do their worst. You are not alone friend & have nothing to be sorry for. It's them pig-faced demons that should be sorry.

#rejectionsensitivedysphoria #selfhatred

Last updated 1 year ago

KiltedQueer :trans_heart: · @KiltedQueer
666 followers · 1292 posts · Server mstdn.social

My explanation for MANY of mah reactions are and severe . I hate this but I also cannae escape it. My team helps me cope, but mah monsters hae the upper hand as it were.

#ImSorry #imverybroken #mentalhealth #selfhatred #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria

Last updated 1 year ago

KiltedQueer :trans_heart: · @KiltedQueer
644 followers · 908 posts · Server mstdn.social

Ok, I've decided tae share this as I see nae need not tae. I suffer frae due tae the unfortunate combinations of medications I MUST take. I also suffer frae what makes my ED inoperable. Because of this, I havnae had penetrative sex for 17 year and my severe and cause me tae nae have any other form of sex. A week ago, I received an inflatable . This may change my life a wee bit. Questions welcome.

#penileimplant #selfhatred #mdd #peyroniesdisease #ed

Last updated 2 years ago

KiltedQueer :trans_heart: · @KiltedQueer
638 followers · 833 posts · Server mstdn.social

Having a wee on someone is lovely. Having one on someone taken kinda sucks arse but is safe as all fuck. But fer the love o' wee green apples, never make it known!

#SufferinginSilence #selfhatred #shy #unrequited #romance #crush

Last updated 2 years ago

KiltedQueer :trans_heart: · @KiltedQueer
610 followers · 539 posts · Server mstdn.social

I think I finally got it thru mah heid that my and extreme innae gaen anywhere, hence untreatable. I want tae attempt tae enjoy life whatever that means, but I will always want suicide as an option. I think she finally gets it. ,

#youshouldreallyrun #iamverybroken #neurodivergent #ptsd #ocpd #Dysthymia #majordepressivedisorderrecurrent #selfhatred #suicidalideations #psychiatrist

Last updated 2 years ago

KiltedQueer :trans_heart: · @KiltedQueer
586 followers · 323 posts · Server mstdn.social

I want a partner. I want tae . I suffer frae so even if there WAS an attraction, I would sabotage it. My monsters do this tae protect the other person. This is the joys of and with a lovely dose of crippling . . The saving grace is that with my lack of desirability, none of the above is likely tae happen lol.

#mentalhealth #Depression #iamverybroken #ocpd #dysthemia #mdd #selfhatred #date

Last updated 2 years ago

KiltedQueer :trans_heart: · @KiltedQueer
586 followers · 323 posts · Server mstdn.social

@debihope I lust after unobtainable people for fear that obtainable ones might like me back.

#fear #selfhatred

Last updated 2 years ago

KiltedQueer :trans_heart: · @KiltedQueer
505 followers · 37 posts · Server mstdn.social
KiltedQueer :verified_trans: · @KiltedQueer
492 followers · 1270 posts · Server mstdn.party

I donnae people tae be followed back. I'm fine is ye donnae follow me back, this saves meh frae wondering just what the fuck is wrong ye.

#follow #selfhatred

Last updated 2 years ago

KiltedQueer :verified_trans: · @KiltedQueer
478 followers · 1269 posts · Server mstdn.party

with extreme is: "Hi, I hae a friend that would love tae meet ye."
"I wudnae recommend that love, I am a poor life decision."
An the solitude continues.

#majordepressivedisorderrecurrent #selfhatred

Last updated 2 years ago

KiltedQueer :verified_trans: · @KiltedQueer
436 followers · 1645 posts · Server mstdn.party

I shall describe mahsel in twa words: I am a very poor life decision.

#selfhatred #depression

Last updated 2 years ago

KiltedQueer :genderfluid_flag: · @KiltedQueer
310 followers · 2339 posts · Server mstdn.party

I can love you so deeply that it transcends my understanding. I am unable tae love mahsel...even the concept of that makes me physically ill. My question for you is, can you love me for both of us?

#depression #selfhatred

Last updated 2 years ago

KiltedQueer :genderfluid_flag: · @KiltedQueer
293 followers · 2176 posts · Server mstdn.party

A person on here gave me a crackin idea! Instead of dating and loving humans, just send me a voodoo doll of ye!

#dating #neurodivergent #voodoodoll #selfhatred

Last updated 2 years ago

KiltedQueer :genderfluid_flag: · @KiltedQueer
272 followers · 2054 posts · Server mstdn.party
KiltedQueer :genderfluid_flag: · @KiltedQueer
272 followers · 2040 posts · Server mstdn.party

I feel it is my duty tae tell people who might wind up being dating material that I am have weekly , hae diagnosed and ...and extreme tae the degree that I fully believe that no one cud ever love or even like meh...and if they DO, that it will crash and burn. So rather than risk it, I crash and burn it maself. This makes people run, and it hurts like I cannae put intae words.

#depressed #suicidalideations #ocd #ptsd #selfhatred

Last updated 2 years ago