Today is really a weird day. In German it would be called “Ein Wechselbad der Gefühle” (“An alternation of feelings” - doesn’t completely fit the bill, but ok).

I have the feeling I made a few mistakes, but I am not sure. Did I? Was it right to say what I said? Or did I just make things that were difficult even worse? I have no idea! No idea at all.

I am waiting, hoping to get a sign whether my actions were ok or not, but nothing so far…

Reconciling all that is and that could, including all the people involved, how can I do that?

I am at a loss… like the last dragon - the last of its kind.

Sadness fills me; worry; mixed feelings; up and down; hot and cold; - where are you? where am I? what am I? what did I do, again?

#Sadness #WeirdFeelings #Questions

I keep telling others how they should believe in themselves, how beautiful they are, and how wonderful life is. But what about me? Do I believe that that is also true for me? Is it…? Sometimes, life becomes unbearable - for no reason at all it seems.

No, no, don’t worry, I’m not in danger of doing something stupid - for that, I love my life too much (and don’t forget, my goal is to be 132 years old when I die).

No, nothing so brutal, just sadness about whether I - again - made a few silly, stupid, dumb mistakes. Thats all…

It's fun when a bad day comes out of nowhere, isn't it?

Today has been weird. It's definitely an off day. We are starting our holiday decorating, and spending great family time together which is rare.

I feel disconnected. I feel like I don't belong here. I know I DO, it's my house and my family.
I think I'll listen to some music and try to reset.

#mentalhealth #badday #weirdfeelings #reset #discussion #TalkingAboutIt

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